"如果你已经不爱他(她)，不要在伤害他(她)的心。"
世界是不公平的。
争取了一个东西，
就要牺牲另一个。
大学生了没 071121 [女大生爱情困惑(上)part1]
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well, tomorrow's Show On Stage concert.
looking forward to it. (:
time really do flies.
it's the last day of the month already.
soon, it will be Christmas then new year.
by the way, 罗志祥 is coming to Singapore again on the 14 of December.
it's so super busy this holis. )):
1:41 PM
i was playing Fatal Frame on PS2 just now.
i can say it's way too scary to play alone.
i switched off after a few minutes walking in that haunted mansion. =.=
it really gives me a heart attack.
especially when you're holding the camara.
i don't know why i played this game suddenly.
remembered i once played this with min*2 by my side.
i was holding on to the controller and don't dare to moved the character. LOL.
the ''thing" will appear right in front of you~ OMG.
well, nothing much happen today.
i'm super slack this holis.
i'll revise later. =x
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罗志祥 - 我不会唱歌MV (MV feat.林嘉欣)
会唱情歌的人不一定懂得如何去爱。
我们都会唱情歌但我们都无法把爱所出口。
1:12 PM
背叛
在我的心理， 它分为友情、亲情、与爱情3种背叛。
它们所给我的感受都一样。
不是伤就是气。
背叛别人会还来什么?
快乐? 满足感? 自由?
如果你背叛他人而还来其他人的背叛，
应该说是"报应"或"应得"吧。
如果你没做错什么但被背叛了，
这样公平吗?
可能现在你还没察觉出自己正在背叛你所爱的人。
等你清醒后，已经太晚了。
事情不会变但人会。
事先想通才做，
心里就不会有那么多的"后悔"。
11:20 AM
i kept waking up early this few days.
and it's always 9.30am. =.= feeling sick now.
OMG~ nana jie is going to help us order STAGE again.
think i won't be ordering already. no money. T.T
wait for the trip to Taiwan then buy. XD
this is super cute~ haha. even the back of the shirt have pig pig. ((:
this cost $68 (plus delivery $) already~
aww. feel like buying the skirt too. haha.
it cost $68 as well.
10:59 AM
梁静茹 - 会呼吸的痛
在东京铁塔 第一次眺望
看灯火模仿 坠落的星光
我终於到达 但却更悲伤
一个人完成 我们的梦想
你总说 时间还很多 你可以等我
以前我不懂得 未必明天 就有以后
想念是会呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛 看你的信会痛 连沈默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛 它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛 恨不懂你会痛 想见不能见最痛
没看你脸上 张扬过哀伤
那是种多么 寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙 让我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆绑
你没说 你也会软弱 需要依赖我
我就装不晓得 自由移动 自我地过
我发誓不再说谎了 多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了 灵魂像飘浮著 你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候 陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳 怕心被人触碰 你回来那就好了
能重来那就好了
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nothing to do yesterday so i've done some drawings. (:i've never done colouring for such a long time.reference from 'captive heart' comic.
12:55 PM
i'm glad i survived yesterday.
i can hardly breathe. =.=
12:00 AM
i can't sleep yesterday.10.30pm i went to sleep as i'm super tired. =.=slept for 1 hour then i woke up by my dog's barking.from then, i can't go back to sleep already. lay on my bed for 4hours.then, i went to look for things to do. i've done one topic on the chemistry TYS.5.30am, i finally force myself to sleep.morning i woke up at 9. lay on bed till 10.30am.what a torture for me.but i'm feeling ok today._______________________________________________
i feel like vomiting after eating medicine.i don't feel well now. )):
11:12 AM
yesterday sis want to take a look at the photos took when i'm young.
i'm super cute ok? i've changed alot. now, i'm not cute anymore. T.T
one year old. my er ge hiding behind. i look like a boy. hees.
turning two~ i have to lean against the wall to stand up. 
two years old. chubby face with big big eyes. ^^
me and sis. i'm 2 years old too (:
turing three. :D
me and duck duck. artistic photo took by mom. X)(p.s: i've known duck duck since i'm young. hehe. :D )
so much for today.healing from my illness.been sleeping early this days. (:
2:30 PM
i always wonder are those words for me.i finally get the answer.i'm touched with just that simple 3 sentences.(p.s: i hoped i'm not wrong.is it i'm thinking too much again or...)i just watched the movie "Happy Birthday".it's quite long ago.我希望每年的今天 (25.11)， 我可以祝你生日快乐。
"每年的生日。。。
是我可以勇敢想你的一天"
that's what i wished for.
11:32 PM
alright, this looks like a primary school drawing. LOL.
it's drawn by me ok? i'm really bored.
a room full of Hello Kitty,
an pathway that joined two houses together,
a secret entrance to a small cosy room...
you should know what i'm talking about. (:
i can imagine but i can't really draw them out on how it really looks like.
Happy Birthday
in advance.
that's what i can give you right now.
may all your wishes come true.
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i've done another Q版罗志祥!
12:49 PM
I'M SICK! ))):getting sore throat and flu yesterday.it's getting worst today as i'm having headache too. T.Tat least i have not lose my voice. i can still sing. haha.there's a miracle yesterday. i slept at 10pm. ^^ectually i'm going to sleep at 9 but i went to listen to songs so i can sleep well. haha. =.=i've been sleeping during midnight for the whole last week. (maybe that caused me to get ill)woke up at 10am today.i'm tired.i'm bored.someone please keep me occupiedor else i will just fall asleep. ):i don't want to studay today. (in fact, i didn't revise yet. just done some of my homework)i'm trying to drink as much water as possible. (as i only wait till i'm thirsty then drink)please, please get well by 1st december or earlier. ))));________________________________________________________done my 罗志祥 Q版 drawing! (:
i've nothing to do so do some drawings of it since the forum needs it. ^^ ectually it's quite simple. i just focus more on the hair.
11:27 AM
i'm really in love with this song, 防盗锁.the lyrics really do speaks what i'm feeling. yesterday when i go out with min, we talk about our relationships.
it reminds me the things happening at that time.
honestly, i really don't regret putting in the effort in that relationship.no matter what. now, it's raining heavily. listening to this song, thinking of the past. one of your dream will never ever be granted anymore.
3:59 PM
went out with min*2 today. had a fun and crazy time with her. we spent lots of money too~~
i brought $60 and i spent all of them~! *fly away*
I'VE BOUGHT 小鬼 的涂鸦书! (搞什么鬼?!) at bugis Kinokuniya. YAY! you know how long i've been searching for it?! without any considerations, i bought it. quite expensive. $26. anyway, i'm glad i had found it. ((:
another good news! SHOW YOUR DANCE (舞所不在) album had imported to singapore!!!!! YEAH~! when i went to Bras Basah POPULAR to collect the CD, i quite gave up hope as min*2 also went to Hougang to collect today but the stock is not here. BUT BUT BUT, I GOT IT!!!! i very excited you know... so i'm very anxious. keep 'shouting'. :P i got a stare from the service counter staff. (min*2 told me) okay, i'm too over reactive. (TOO HAPPY~!)
on the way to Bugis Junction, two girls came and asked for our help.
girl 1: can you please help us? we're playing a game... *being cut off by me*
me: huh? *very shocked voice cause i thought there's camara once she said 'game'*
girl 2: don't be shy. we just need you two to donate some money to us so we can sell all of our items away.
girl 1: chose an item in that black bag
me + min: sure! (give them $1 each and min chose the prize)
girl 1: you all really cannot expect much for the prize. ok?
me: *nodd*
min: *she took out a red-green sponge, which fits her clothes*
me: SPONGEBOB!
girl 1: yupp. we really do draw a spongebob picture on the sponge. but it's sold out.
me + min: *laugh* really?
girl1 + 2: yupp. okay. thanks!
me + min: bye~!
(min kept the sponge though. haha. it really matches her shirt)
went to take neoprints with min*2. we have not take for half a year. each of us spent $15 and took 3 neos. FUN time we had. worth it. haha. :DD
we don't feel like going back home. so, we sat down at the MRT and chit-chat. (for a while) 7pm - reach home.
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i bathed, ate dinner and listen to 罗志祥's album, memories the lyrics.
found two songs really sweet. it fits my feelings too~
罗志祥 - 做得到
looking at the lyrics and sing along, i feel this song is a very sweet and romantic song.
if my boyfriend sing this to me, i'll sure be touched.
罗志祥 - 防盗锁
no matter how many times i sing this, i'll cry. there's really flashbacks in my mind.
' 给了你幸福 又盼望你回心转意
感情 没有防盗锁 爱走不到颈头
不后悔付出过 各自回家的路 式着不再 难过
如果离开 是爱你最后的承诺 '
SHOW ON STAGE 演唱会加油!!! 17&18号! 杀~~~~!
11:59 PM
just now the CD-RAMA staff called me and said that theSHOW YOUR DANCE may be dely. they not sure what time. and said maybe ONE WEEK! OMG. i'm going to bugis anyway, so i'll check if the stock have arrived by that time. *pray hard* I CAN"T BEAR TO WAIT ANY LONGER~~~!!! one day is enough for me. T.Tno choice, i have to go online listen to the album songs first and remeber the lyrics for the concert!!! so far so good, i've memories most of the [我秀故我在], [败给你]，[我不会唱歌] and [一支獨秀 ] lyrics. ((: more to go![我不会唱歌] really makes me cry. after listen to that, i feel like saying :" 不要在说你不会唱歌了。"
这次小猪的专辑我认为有比较可爱&抒情的歌曲~可爱的歌听了会让你的心情特别好哦!
像[當我们宅一块] & [败给你]
抒情歌就会让我大哭! 真的会打动你们的心~
像[我不会唱歌]，[做得到]，[防盜锁] & [最後的风度]
尤其是 [我不会唱歌]。我超喜欢后面background music、钢琴伴奏。
我会想到
小猪在演唱会的时候哭着唱[力量]， 想起他的爸爸。
小猪在努力进他的权力完成他所要做的事。
小猪开心的在百分百逗大家笑。
他所做的一切， 我相信大家都感受到了吧。
小猪， 加油。
9:20 PM
i bought my first manga comic~!!
'Captive Heart' - gender: ROMANCE 
last time i saw Sheryl (my classmate) reading it. i flip through some of the pages, it's ok. so i bought 1st volume and try. it's quite nice ectually. abit draggy though. in the end, i still bought the whole 4 volumes. =.=
i think there's more than 4 volumes. it only released till volume 4. i complete reading 4 of them yesterday. haha. ^^
yesterday was 罗志祥's MV [败给你] 首播~ 打得很凶! even the BIG TRAIN ADVERTISEMENT also. ^^ a super cute MV with Elva! ohh babe babe ohh, babe babe ohh. LOL. XDD you know what to do when your boyfriend make you angry. hahaha.
i won't be going to redeem my SHOW YOUR DANCE CD today. tomorrow when i go out with PEN then take. ((: looking forward.
i gonna broke soon. after buying the comics and cd, not much money left. and i bought 3 same CDs of SHOW YOUR DANCE. i'm crazy. 2 from taiwan's CD shop and 7-11. another from singapore. same as speshow. i bought 3 too. LOL.
小豬 05:26 AM 瀏覽帖子 「秀」迷 留 言 （>"，) ★☆★☆ 真的 ... he saw my post!!!! YEAH~! hahaha.
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罗志祥 + 萧亚轩 - 败给你MVdrew this during bridging course. :P
my art observation studies. i like the hairband shading. i succeed! :DD
drew this on Thursday and yesterday.
12:35 PM
everything came back to haunt me again. i don't like to sleep now.yesterday i began to complete my whole chinese tasks assigned. i finished it till 3AMplus.tired, but i'm glad. as i'm too tired to think about other stuffs anymore.as the days goes by, i don't think i've succeeded in changing my character.graduating from primary school, i thought of changing to a much braver and stronger person. yet, i failed till now.i'm sure there's people who hate me. of course it doesn't feels good.everytime when i thought of studies, the stress will just come out of no where. i'll just stare at the textbooks and cry. it's just a moment. i know i should work hard. i'm just a lazy person. whenever i saw books (except comics), i'll just flip through it and switched on the TV. yupp. and it's EVERYTIME.i wonder why i'm writing this. x.x ( ZzZ )
4:44 PM
yesterday was such a fun and tiring day. well, we had all of our emotions in that autograph session. let's start from the beginning.
9.11.2007
11am
reached Bugis and meet Hui Ting and 'new' friends (we just met them and into ourselves). well, they went to queue at 7plus AM!!! and we're the third in line!! :DDDD
11am++ to 2pm++
the sun is scotching. the security asked us to shift in to the Mac side as there's shade. (we're at the Star Bucks at first)
the security told us that the organiser said " ONLY people who bought the tickets at BUGIS will have the priority to sign FIRST." that means we will be pushed from the third to the 500th plus! most of them cried as they make out thier time to line up so early and yet we can't stand in the front row or being signed first.
6pm
we thought we can't get in as we don't have the Bugis Junction stamp behind our concert tickets. then, somehow, people siad that we can ectually get the stamp at level two Sistic. so Hui Ting and I collected the tickets. but she forgotten to collect Haiyun and friend's tickets. so i took and rushed to catch up with hui ting. but, i can't se her anywhere. i called her 3 times she never picked up.i went back to the lining up session and found her already came back with the stamped tickets.
i'm so scared. everyone was anxious back then. i asked where is the Sistic counter, they just said is at level two. i'm really confused. then i asked Yan Ling to accompany me. luckily, she somehow knew where is it. we rushed there and get the stamp from the counter and rushed back.
i just cry on the spot when i returned them the tickets. i'm really scared i can't get the stamp on time and Hai Yun they all can't go in the stage. i can't controll my feelings. i cried till my eyes are sore. =.=
7.35pm
he finally came!!! everyone was blocking his way up the stage so there's a hold up. we planned a welcoming present for him earlier. and everyone shouted :" 小豬！ 你命好，感動了天! *WOOT* " haha. he said :" 是不是?! GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD! *appling his lipgloss like MR PIG*" OMG! he's so cute! haha. everyone laughed. he sang a part of 一支独秀 and the autograph session starts. Hui Ting was the first to go up. i'm the fifth. ((:
why i'm always like that??!!?! i forgot to tell him "加油"again!!! i'm so angry about this. i'm too excited and buzy giving my card to him that i forgot to tell. i regretted more than ever.
10.05pm
he signed ALL of the tics, poster, SOS book and presale in just TWO HOURS!!! there's really ALOT of people. the queue stared from the Forum (at the fountain outside bugis)to the other side of the building! more than a thousand people.
10.50pm
wait till bro finished his work and go home together with elieen.
PHOTOS
*getting sun burn* =.= at ard afternoon.
at the Star Buck's side lining up.
shifted to the mac's side.
in the first ROW!! XD STAGE~
tears i shared. ))):
大合照! i hope i'm in there! (: *pic from forum*
after the auto session. (: *took by hui ting*
my ticket! the 7th row~ hope it's not too far. 
presale. bought yesterday. (:
things collected from nana jie (expt HSM2 CD)
autograph in SOS book (bought frm taiwan)
i saw myself in the 新动网news!! OMG~ jus a little head. :P
the card i gave him. (front cover) i just like the words i drawn. :P
~END~
12:39 PM
it's starting to get busy as he's coming on FRIDAY! yes, two more days (plus today) ~ so excited! hope that we'll take the poster! XDDD and all the things will be collected on friday. my SOS book, HSM2 CD, it's poster and tickets~!!! oh gosh, i'll be so high that day. :Pi'll be revising and doing homework during holis~ not much time!!! T.T
10:06 PM
me and sis finally cut our hair~~! (on 02.11.2007) OMG. my right hand side's hair is so short. like boy boy. XDDD yupp. ok with the new hairstyle. quite shocking though. :P03.11.2007went to causeway point for dinner. ((: ICHIBAN SUSHI~
6:26 PM
never go to the AEM course and i will never go for the next two weeks. yesterday i attended it and it was so BORING. the teacher never teach though. only three people of our class go out of ten. =.= the teacher also shocked by our attendance.
it just feel so hurt from being insulted by people like that. and i treat you as my close friend. i cried not because i'm angry when i saw the messages. is because i know how you think of me as a friend of yours. i HAVE my own choices. bridging lessons is much more important for ME. if you want to go to the AEM course, sure you can go. but you can't force me to go there. i feel like torturing myself to go there. what's wrong when i'm going to bridging? if it's not to accompany you yesterday , i won't be going.
I've talked to you nicely but doesn't seem better. and you bring out the project work we've done this year and said that i didn't do anything. yes, i admit i didn't do the chemistry group project (WHICH I FORGOT). at least i do some of the word editing. at least i do something.
but i won't admit that i didn't do for the GEOGRAPHY. i mean if i don't care, why i waste my time to edit the slides till midnight? due to the CDP project, it's you who said that "don't need" when i asked whether you need any help. it's becasue my english is poor. i understand. all the group projects, you put in the most effort doing it. i know. but you can't point all the problems at me. when this quarreling did not happen, you said that "never mind". now, you want to tell me you mind.
and i hope you keep this sentance "hiding due to sadness? because of who?" back. why is there a need to bring out this again?! it's my sis that told me to stay at her house that day. of course i'm sad. you want me to go and do the project, i will also be just starring blankly or cry. you will never know how i feel! and don't ever bring this out again. (i told you this because i trusted you. my friends from the other class don't even know this. if you want to call me a cry baby, fine.)
what have i done wrong? some people just tell me. i know that in some places i'm wrong. but there's no need to bring out all the matters that i've done wrong and say it all over again.
i've written more then enough. all the things i typed above is how i feel yesterday when i saw the message from you. if you're seeing this, i'm sorry if you think that i didn't put in effort on our project work. i just hate people judge me like that. the toleration i had had been long. not only due to this.
2:37 PM
#29.08.1992 
one year old. my er ge hiding behind. i look like a boy. hees.
turning two~ i have to lean against the wall to stand up. 
two years old. chubby face with big big eyes. ^^
me and sis. i'm 2 years old too (:
turing three. :D
me and duck duck. artistic photo took by mom. X)
*getting sun burn* =.= at ard afternoon.
at the Star Buck's side lining up.
shifted to the mac's side.
in the first ROW!! XD STAGE~
tears i shared. ))):
大合照! i hope i'm in there! (: *pic from forum*
after the auto session. (: *took by hui ting* 
my ticket! the 7th row~ hope it's not too far. 
presale. bought yesterday. (:
things collected from nana jie (expt HSM2 CD)
autograph in SOS book (bought frm taiwan)
i saw myself in the 新动网news!! OMG~ jus a little head. :P
the card i gave him. (front cover) i just like the words i drawn. :P
