8.40pm. I don't even know if I have anything to do.
I feel insercure.
I don't feel well.
I feel sad and stressed.
I really need accompany now.
I don't want to cry again.
I don't want to have sleepless nights again.
No, no, no._________________________________________________________
The class was filled with empathy and silence.
Everyone was paying attention to our Social Studies lessons, including me.
Humans are weak and yet they aren’t helping each other out.
The sunsets and a new day come.
Everything's repeating except my feelings.
The angels are dancing gracefully,
with sweet and pleasant melodies flowing inside them.
They don’t know what’s happening outside the fearful world.
Someday there may not be any human left.
“Why are the humans killing each other?”
They’ll laugh so loud that it wakens us.
We can’t predict anything that’s unspoken.
People are just wasting their time.
Can’t they just bring to an end?
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4:55 PM
School is tiring these days.
Staying back after school for things like CCA or extra lessons.
Today's CCA had changed to tomorrow.
We're selling the chinese calligraphy done last time.
The business is better than I expected.
We've earned hundred plus the first day.
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My feelings are like sand, falling through my hands.
Trying to find it back but yet feeling scared.
I almost lose myself sometimes.
Holding my weakness in me.
Trying to express myself.
Thanks for helping me with your warmth and care.
4:46 PM
Alright, I don't know how to start this post.
So, pictures behind, description in front. LOL.
26.01.2008
A nice day indeed. The first cosplay event I ever went!
Too bad it's too hot that day. Everyone was sweating like hell.
Meet with Zhuo Heng after our mock exams and took the 1hour bus to Ngee Ann poly.
I found out that people are looking at me with strange stares. =.=
We reached at around 1plusPM and went to meet Kristy and gang.
First time meeting Meki, Shiro, Souless, Kaori, etc from sgclub.
They're nice. (:
Saw alot of Bleach and Naruto cosplayers, lolita and waloli etc.
And a super duper cool Ryuk cosplay! :D
I bought Nodame Cantabile's piano bag from HaRu booth at $18.
Wanted this for a long time though i never watch the anime before. =x
After the events and competition held, we took bus, mrt and form groups to walk from City Link to Suntec's Manga Oasis Cafe to eat as we have a big group of 18 people. Alot of check points.
Everyone was looking at us while we're walking there. And alot of tourist wanted to take pictures with us.
Thanks super senior Li Wen for leading us. ^^
We were so hungry after starving for so long. >.<
It's my first time going there.
A nice atmosphere with artworks all around.
The food is nice too.
Thanks Kaori for serving and helping us order the food. ((:
We're bored after chatting so we went to Atsuki and Otaku to shop.
Went home at around 7.30pm feeling so tired.
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Here are the photos taken by Souless (Jason), Zhuo Heng and me. (Thanks guys!)
As I didn't bring my sis's view camera there, I took the photos with my handphone. =.=
ENJOY~!
No stealing of photos please. :D
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The beginning.
That's Meki sitting infront playing PSP. LOL.
People outside and inside the theater
Sasuke and Itachi from Naruto
A character from Trinity Blood
Don't know who's this. But it's a neko! (:
Yuri and Mr Karate from King Of Fighters
Ryuk from Death Note
Characters from FF4. they're lame and i can't stand it. =.=
Kon from Bleach. So kawaii. x3
A character from Prince of Tennis
Naruto and Bleach
Cloud from Final Fantasy
Randomness.
Kristy's dollfie!! Super in love with that. ^^
It cost $300 plus. My god.
Me taken by Zhuo Heng (Kagome)
Lastly, group photos!
Now you can imagine people looking at us with weird expressions on the streets.
Kristy, Li Wen (Kuroii) and me.
11:30 PM
Today woke up feeling sad.
I don't know why though.
My friends talk to me I just nodded my head.
But I'm super crazy after PE lessons. (:
Boys can be really childish but funny.
During PE lessons, I laugh till my lungs can't stand it.
Oh, and Mr Hafeez doesn’t know I'm short till yesterday. LOL.
He called me up to mark the answers wrote on the white board.
He saw me struggling trying to mark the answers on the top then he helped me. =.=
He said sorry to me when I went back to my seat. HAHA.
How do you feel if you have an early Saturday morning waking up to do tests.
Tired, of course.
Too bad there’s English and Physics mock exams for us tomorrow.
After that, I'm going to SOY cosplay event!
Will be wearing my Japanese school uniform. :D
Going to my first cosplay event with a long one hour bus to reach. >.<
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王心凌 - 这就是爱
飘流在爱情海域
你我也曾有过伤心
因为相信让俩颗心贴近了距离
当我靠在你的怀里
所有话题都是多余
眼前的风景都是你给我的美丽
月影遥天都亮了星星睡不着
我在你耳边轻轻唱着你笑了
oh 爱~
俩颗星星一片海
牵着的手都明白再也离不开
oh 爱~
轻轻飘进我心海
你是甜蜜的意外我却逃不开oh~爱
开始不懂爱到现在才明白
恋爱中的人都像个小孩
情愿被宠坏每一天都充满期待
这就是爱
2:07 PM
Stayed back today in the super cold air-con art room.
I've printed so many pieces of pictures for my research that the printer ran out of ink.Then Andy blamed me of printing so much and now, he can't print any. =.=
I'm very curious how he can escape of coming to school late everyday.
I asked him whether he really have some problems.
"Yes, but not very serious" he said.
I don't want to force him say some more as I scared he can't control his emotional or something. >.<
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Time is running out.
"O"level results are out today.
I'm so surprised to hear from Mr Ng that only one pupil scored a distinction in art.
All the others are B3 or C6.
I can't believe it.
There's no way I'm going to score a A1 or A2 so easily now.
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Tell me the truth.
I can't bear with it any longer.
That shadow is coming out of my body.
I feel so moody after listening to Cao Ge's songs everytime.
I kept replay track number 3, 7 and 8 like I'm switching channels on the television.
I'll close the curtains and lay down on my bed.
Looking up on the wall and the 'stars'.
Tears just can't stop flowing down.
I'm really trying my best to change.
Trying to change into a person whom I'm not now.
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曹格 - 《无辜》音乐电影 Part 1
曹格 - 《无辜》音乐电影 Part 2
曹格 - 《无辜》音乐电影 Part 3
曹格 - 《无辜》音乐电影 Part 4
4:45 PM
Stressed by all the teacher's nagging.Art course work, mock exams, extra lessons, class test, pop quizes, homework, etc.Every week the same routine.Today I really feel like I'm breaking down from all this.Especially after art lessons.Mr Ng was there talking about the "O"level course work and I starred blankly on the floor thinking about all the things needed to do.I'm gone if i didn't get an A1 or A2 for my art.And of course, passing my english.I'll try hard to be a better person.Trying to consider other people's feelings on what ever I say.I'm sorry to anyone whom felt hurt of what I've said or do.
3:24 PM
They can see the clear blue sky with puffy clouds painted over it.
Everyone seems to be in high spirits.Except for one.She can’t see the colours in her life.Everything was so dull and distort.Nobody ever understands her.
Perhaps she should just disappear from the world, she thought.She returned back into realityand found out that shadow had vanished inside her, forever.That mystification created when one’s mind overrides it, she assumed.* * *
* * *
Laying down and thinking.
That's when I need you.
Laughing is harder than it seems.
Life isn't so complicated as it is.
Sometimes I may cry.
Sometimes I may be foolish.
Sometimes I may think alot.
Sometimes I may make you angry.
Sometimes I may say what I should keep inside.
But that's just the way I am.
Running away, I really am.
I fell a lot of times.
But I guess I just can't forget you.
You, the one that I love.
3:19 PM
18.01.2007
Went to Compass Point with sis after school to shop.
I bought a 'high' heels shoe. (:
Then set off to Causeway Point.
We're so bored and tired after going to the library and shopping.
My jie fu came and join us at evening.
We went back to Seng Kang and borrowed car to IKEA to eat dinner.
Bought a really funny and cute "mouse" mask toy at IKEA.
We played and took a lot of pictures with it on the way in the car.
We laughed so much. :D
Reached Changi Airport Terminal 3 to 'shop'.
I can say that they spent a lot of money on building and designing.
I still don't know what the big 'flower windmill' is for. =.=
Went home with a full and pain stomach. >.<
19.01.2008
Today went to KK clinic with jie fu and sis, as she needs to go for checkup.
Waited for a very loooonnng time and finally it's our turn.
I saw my sis's baby's butt and face when the nurse scanned the thing on her stomach.
His/her face looks a bit scary as he/she is just 15weeks old.
The doctor said that it might be a boy. XD But it's still too young to confirm.
After that, we went to Aljunied to collect my luo zhi xiang's CDs I bought last time with nana jie.
Later, we went to Hougang Mall to find present for Ah Si and to Hougang Point to celebrate her birthday.
While we're hunting for her present at Popular, I found Captive Heart comic last episode! I bought it without any consideration. LOL.
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PICTURES
my whole lot of CDs collected today. =.=
new shoes. (:
The funny mask we bought. LOL.
I can't stop laughing. XD
Pardon me for being so zi lian.
But I love my neko (cat) ears! ((:
10:50 PM
We've asked for our VP's approval today and both our VPs had approve us to organise a cosplay event in school! I'm so glad they've agreed. So far 7 people joined and help us. We have to make a proposal though for a confirmation approval and a booth for us.
So today stayed back for art club for the Chinese calligraphy. It's so boring I can say. Keep doing the same words over and over again. =.=
Seems like alot of people said that I've changed.
From what I notice is I'm becoming much more cheerful and talk more?
Is it my hair that changed me or school?
But, that's good I think.
For Zhuo Heng it's best as she won't feel like talking to a wall anymore. WAHAHA.
So much for today.
Tomorrow will be a long long day at school. ))))):
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徐熙娣 - 爱不持久爱不可能持久
尤其当一个人怀疑自己的时候
本来更甜美的话
现在却象在吵架
如果没有人想承认自己还爱对方
爱就变成挣扎
爱不可能持久
尤其当你开始怀疑我不爱你的时候
本来想牵你的手
现在却觉得尴尬
如果没有人想承认自己还爱对方
爱就变成挣扎
我不想失去你
又不知道如何表达
我爱你明明在心里面回荡
我不想失去你
又不知道如何表达
下次多希望你能够鼓起勇气说爱我
6:06 PM
Today school was fun.
In the morning, chatted alot with Zhuo Heng about cosplay stuffs.
We gonna plan for a cosplay event at our school to help raise funds for the school's indoor sports hall.
It's still possible. Tomorrow have to ask for teacher's approval. (:
And I can wear my lolita costumes too~
We'll be the first to organise a cosplay event at our school! :D
Btw, Celena and Gerlene agreed to help us out! YAY!
Recess, I had my "adventure" in the classroom.
We're like mouse hiding at the corner of our class. LOL.
Everyone squeeze like hell.
Scary but fun.
After school, we stayed back for Chemistry test.
I'm screwed again.
I didn't study much yesterday.
I've gave up on the paper though I tried to do all the questions.
It's a miracle if I pass. =X
Art assignment~
I've decided to do fashion design on the theme Traditional and Modern.
Alot of observation studies to draw. T.T
YAY! The stress for Chemistry is O-V-E-R, OVER, O OVER~ =.=''''
Can at least relax abit for this week from today.
4:44 PM
Yesterday went to Thomson Hospital to visit Ling Ling (my relative).
Saw some A-D-O-R-A-B-L-E babies in the nursery room. Really cute. (:
After that went to eat dinner and bought 曹格 and 罗志祥's albums at Novena Square.
My brother helped me paid them. =P
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Today at school is super relax.
During recess, I went to return the books i borrowed to the MRL.
I saw something on my table when I returned back to class.
Last week during English lessons I'm bored so I wrote "I LOVE YOU" on my table.
Today "someone" replied on my table. =.=
That "someone" wrote back "i love u too!" below.
It's so funny when I saw it.
But it's quite spooky also.
I don't know who wrote it.
It looks like a boy's hand writing but I still guess is a girl wrote it to play a prank on me.
Somehow I thought of the movie "不能说的秘密". HAHA.
I still think 曹格's songs made me feel depressed.
I love this song: 单数.
I played the song and followed the lyrics.
It just makes me cry. __________________________________________________________
羅志祥 - 最後的風度MV
1:59 PM
I love Wednesday~ (for now)
First of all, no need to wake up early in the morning.
Second, school release as normal and we only studied for 3 hours. :D
Just now I'm surfing the net and I saw this.
最后的风度MV首播.
I hope he will have a MV for 防盗锁. (:
I'm not a crazy 罗志祥 fan from this year onwards.
No time for that and it really kills as I'll go bankrupt buying his album alone.
Even my dad had been nagging me for spending so much on him.
I've limited myself to this.
No chasing, no buying of more than one album of the same version.
Okay, nothing much happen today.
Just tired of writing compo during chinese lesson.
I'm hungry now with alot of time to spent on my assignments. o.o
3:23 PM
Today's school still okay as usual.For Chemistry lessons, Mr Hafeez seems to be quite "nice" and "calm" today.At least he didn't torture us or something. Or any pop quiz.Speaking of that, I'm so screwed for my math test.I don't have enough time to complete it.Oh man... I just hate graphs. =.= Alot of homework assigned. Especially art.We've got our "O" levels topic today and the themes aren’t easy.
I just can’t elaborate or chose what I want to do.
I’m so dead.Every teachers are stressing us on the coming "O" levels now.I just hope nothing bad happens on that day of examination.*pray hard*
4:05 PM
- I hugged myself in a cozy and stuffy room.I saw my loved one hugging another person in front of me.They are chatting happily with laughters all over the room.I faced down on the floor and close my eyes; pretend that I never saw it.I opened my eyes, looked around and discovered that I'm back home.I was going somewhere.I forgot to take my jacket and ran back to my house to take it.When I was running towards the corridor, I saw someone.An old man looking at me curiously.His face looks pale and skinny with white strands of hair on his head.
I can't see his feet. Maybe this is because he is floating in the air.
I rubbed my eyes and he was gone.When i reached home, my mother kept getting the wrong jacket I wanted."That baby pink colour with shiny surface jacket!" I shouted, standing outside the door.I went in to my house and take it in the end.Without hesitation, ran to take the lift down to first level.Someone was following me.That creature's face is weird.It's about 20cm tall with a short ugly tail and purple in colour. I can see it's sharp pointed teeth outside it's mouth.And I'm trapped in the lift together with it.That creature tried to bite me and it succeeded. It's freaking pain.I ran out of the lift and realized I've reached the first floor.My foot somehow gets heavier. I'm running slower and slower.I turned around and I saw... ... - I woke up, trying to catch my breath.My heart is thumping fast."I'm back." I thought.Trying to find what time is it, I climb out of bed."8.20am... What a nightmare...”It's amazing that I still remember every detail of my dream till now.{People make mistakes.Somehow we don't even realize it.They say making mistakes will make you stronger.But it makes me weaker.}
2:51 PM
Today's lessons were not bad.The "chicken rice" teacher stressed us about "O" level art during art lessons. I was thinking of doing either game packaging or fashion design. Actually I'm interested in animation but too much drawing is needed and there's no time for me to cope with it. hais. ))):Social Studies teacher never come. YAY. =XAnd it's FRIDAY! WOOTS~!But can't go home early today as there's CCA carnival for the Secondary Ones at 3pm. )):Went to help at around 1.30pm to carry things.Soon it rained! 0.0 Then we had to carry all the stuffs back to level two. My whole body was wet. =.=For the whole carnival, only Mr How and Miss Low was there to help for our CCA.That "chicken rice" teacher was not there again. (and again) Only know how to command us to do work. =.=The secondary ones came and as expected, a few joined. Didn't reach even five members. LOL.As I know everyone thinks that Art Club is a boring CCA. (p.s: and it is! hahaha...)I told Mr How and Zhuo Heng that maybe i should wear my lolita shirt to "lure" them. HAHA.Oh, and many thanks to Mr How! He taught me alot on art stuffs, weakness and the things i should improve on today. :DAround 3plus pm ended and we packed finished all the things at 4.10pm.Being caught in camera thrice. haa...I'm tired and my leg hurts. >.<I helped Carol with the model thingy too. =.='''Force myself as she seems very pity. Like no one wants to help her. LOL.
Mr How drew all these.
Done by some art club members.
4:47 PM
Today, as usual, it's raining.
Felt so cold when i woke up in the morning.
School seems all right today.
Chatted alot with Zhuo Heng about cosplay stuffs and events.
I feel so excited about it.
Finally we have something to talk about all day. :D
During recess time, i walked pass Gerlene's class.
She beg me to be her model. LOL.
After school, I saw Carol.
She chased me for the model thing again. hahaha.
They want me to be their model for their art exam.
Imagine everyone saw your face on the album cover or magazine... =.=
Maybe I should help them but it's so embarrassing.
Sorry~ )):Off to do homework assigned today.Strive hard for the exams friends!! ^^
1:23 PM
Today, the first day of school for the start of 2008.
Better than i expected. (:
A smile on my face. The first expression i had.
Wednesday. As usual, school starts at 11am.
I reached school at 10.35am and saw Carol, Celena and Hui Ping waiting outside the general office for Gerlene to take her IC.
They're shocked to see me, as it's their first time looking at my hair. =.=
I laughed. I'm glad to see them. :D
I'm still in class 4E5, register number 1.
No new friends but now I'm in the class of 35 instead of 40.
During assembly, everything seems to be a dream.
Everything went back.
I wore my school uniform, chatted with friends, teachers nagging. =X
Climbed up the staircase to the forth floor.
Stepped in the classroom which i felt cold and big.
I found a place to sit with my partner and i looked around...
The place seems so creepy at first but with laughter's and smiles i saw from my friends, this class isn't so bad after all.Even our form and co-form teachers.They seems nice. And neat on everything they do. yay. LOL.From tomorrow onwards, lessons will resume.There will be compulsory remedial lessons after school everyday.Stress and tired. T.T
2:40 PM
went out with min*2 again to Bugis.
our "last" day to enjoy ourselves before school reopens.
sounds kind of sad but i felt quite contented.
the old sentence everyone kept saying, "time flies...".
i bought 2 lolita shirt and a dress, spent around $75.
then went to take neoprint again.
enough of spending.
i'll save up all of them when school reopens, for sure. (:
next year...
there will be alot of stress on studies.
there will be alot of common tests.
there will be no time to enjoy, no holidays.
i don't even know whether i really can be hard working to achieve good results for my O levels.
i'm a super lazy girl who does her homework but without revising.
i failed to revise during my holis. regret, sad. )):
i just played too much.
so much that i threw all the stuffs i've learnt back to my teachers.
"hey, this is the crucial year. what do you think all these years of studying is for? ya, for this piece of paper. you've wasted all your time. wake up girl. wake up from your sweet dreams and work hard now..." this is what i've been trying to tell myself during this holiday. i still have not wake up then.
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i love ah da. (that soft toy panda, gift from sis (: )
10:25 PM
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS! ;DD
may all your wishes come true. X) happy 2008~
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i wish i have lots and lots of money now.
i just saw something nice while i'm surfing the Internet.super chibi~! OH MY...(i'm really in love with japan stuffs recently.)
lots of pictures up ahead! :DD
from a Japan store, Heart E. http://www.hearte.co.jp/
around S$20.
around S$135.
around S$40.
around S$163.
around S$243.
around S$243.
around S$297.
around S$308.
around S$378.
around S$11.________________________________________________________I SUPER IN LOVE WITH THE PANDA HAT!!!!!frankly speaking, i don't dare to wear it (if i have) when i go out.but if there's a cosplay event, of course i do! (:and the dress. *eyes shimmering*i have to admit i'm too short to wear those. T.Tand the angel-shaped ring~and, and the bag!!it's so special. poker. LOL. :Palright, i'm crazy.this shows something. i feel much much better!thanks. ^^
12:03 AM
#29.08.1992 
Mr How drew all these.
Done by some art club members.
i love ah da. (that soft toy panda, gift from sis (: ) 
around S$20.
around S$135.
around S$40.
around S$163.
around S$243.
around S$243.
around S$297.
around S$308.
around S$378.
around S$11.
