hi my best friend, it's been so long since i tell you my story.
sometimes hiding things inside me will just make me go crazy.
so many things had happened and sadness came again.
whole lot of assignments pile on me, so little time.
once, you told me to change to a more 'open' character.
to speak up and talk more.
i've changed and of course not only that, you said.
i questioned myself. "am i really such a bad person you said?"
cause i felt like people hate me. i don't know why but sense that they don't really like me inside their mind.
maybe i'm thinking too much, maybe i'm not.
people changes as time past.
i'm sorry to tell you that i won't change forever.
but this proves me wrong, cause you want the 'old' me back.
how can i bring her back?
i don't want to bring her back cause she gave me some really really bad memories.
maybe i'm scared, feared of what will happen in the future.
problems in repetition, it will never end.
maybe i can't even live till tomorrow.
who knows?
"... stress yourself. worth it or not?"
you think everyone wants stress?
if it isn't for survival and to make your parents happy, you think everyone wants it?
where's my love when i need it.
my life can never be beautiful, now.
3:09 AM
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