*我每一天、每一次经历过的事情

heartpainagain..

2009-07-23T03:09:00.002+08:00

hi my best friend, it's been so long since i tell you my story.
sometimes hiding things inside me will just make me go crazy.
so many things had happened and sadness came again.
whole lot of assignments pile on me, so little time.

once, you told me to change to a more 'open' character.
to speak up and talk more.
i've changed and of course not only that, you said.

i questioned myself. "am i really such a bad person you said?"
cause i felt like people hate me. i don't know why but sense that they don't really like me inside their mind.
maybe i'm thinking too much, maybe i'm not.

people changes as time past.
i'm sorry to tell you that i won't change forever.
but this proves me wrong, cause you want the 'old' me back.
how can i bring her back?
i don't want to bring her back cause she gave me some really really bad memories.

maybe i'm scared, feared of what will happen in the future.
problems in repetition, it will never end.

maybe i can't even live till tomorrow.
who knows?

"... stress yourself. worth it or not?"
you think everyone wants stress?
if it isn't for survival and to make your parents happy, you think everyone wants it?

where's my love when i need it.
my life can never be beautiful, now.

曹格, in my dreams (:

2009-06-19T13:57:00.002+08:00

I just woke up not long ago with a 'sweet' dream.
I dreamt of cao ge. (p.s: OMG)

"I at the glamorous hall, sitting on the red cushioned chair and there’s a lot of artists surrounding me. I guess it’s the artists music award or something.

Not long, trying to find someone I know, I turned to my left and saw 曹格. He was sitting on the chair, one space from me.
Then the event started but the gap between me and him hasn’t been filled up. I tried to shift to sit beside him but I don’t dare.

Wasn’t quite sure what happened after that but I was running to get something important. So important that I run so fast and couldn’t catch my breath. I stopped and trying to breathe but no matter how hard I try, I can’t. I was gasping and collapse on the white, cold, and polished floor.

Then, I saw 曹格 again. He was very worried. With his both hands, he carried and sent me to the hospital. (I’m not sure why he just poof out to save me)
Then the word “lung cancer” ,in Chinese, wrote in front of me in brown-reddish colour.

After some years or maybe it’s a different dream because I was sitting in the red cushioned chair again, I turned to my left and saw 曹格 right beside me. The gap was filled by him."

"In this dream, 曹格 had his new hairstyle (the way he comb in bfb 听证会) but I'm not sure what he was wearing cause the place is very dark."

Then I woke and and continue to sleep again, having another dream but I won't type it out cause it's nothing special.

HOLIDAYS~

2009-06-12T19:51:00.002+08:00

YAY YAY~
Finally it's holidays for me!!!
But still have lots of assignments to do and I don't really understand them. ):

Let's talk about my results for my modules this half-semester.
I've got a 'D+' for my communication skills, saw it today. ):
An 'A' for my Drawing and Illustration! :DD
Other's still don't know.

Sigh, my hair is in a mess nowadays.
Need a haircut + rebond ASAP.

That's all for today.
Off to play neopets! XDD

Tired of everything

2009-06-07T04:39:00.002+08:00

Assignments, relationships, health, etc.
Give others sense of directions but not myself.
So many years down the road, can I still go on with this?

Assignments go and die!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-17T04:33:00.002+08:00

Stupid assignments giving me so much trouble and time.
From 12am do until now still haven finish. (cos piggy came my house awhile after watching Angels & Demons. HHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. I want watch again and again.)
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Can't I have a good weekend?
Or a 'day off'?
Why we always have assignments everyday.
Somemore this coming week have major plus small assignment.
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Kay, going sleep now.
I didn't even pack up my desk.
It's in a mess with painting materials and paperssssssssssssssssssssssss. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I HATE IT WHEN MY DESK IS IN A MESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSsss but I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blogger is my best friend cos it listen to my nonsense.
(p.s: it's all spamming down there. bye)

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I'm engaged?

2009-05-06T17:26:00.004+08:00

I received a very shocking and funny news today on the way home with Xin Yi.
We're talking about our lectures (bad things. hehehehh) and suddenly she ask me
"How old are you?"
Then I say "17. You?"
"17. You're engaged?"

HAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
I kept laughing.
She said Hossima told her that I'm engaged in the first place.
Because of the facebook relationship thingy.
They really believe I'm engaged?
It's a bit too early for me guys. =p
I'll be in the future. HAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~ :D

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Oh, here's some photos to Monday's very fun lesson.
I love monday lessons and hated tuesday/thursday so much. >:(
Hate rushing work to hand up.

Worries...

2009-05-03T22:17:00.003+08:00

I've finally finish most of my homework.
Tonnes of it. ))):

So far its been 2 weeks since i started poly.
I have less time for family, him and myself.
Every time I come back home its late.
And I have to complete my homework and stuffs.
I'll be tired after that and went to sleep.
Repeating the same routine.

I've been trying my best in poly.
Though still a bit lazy here and there, but I still complete my assignments.
If I'm not satisfied, I'll just redo.

I'll have to spend my time for relationship during weekends as he book out from camp at that time.
And have to rush uncompleted assignments.

I don't have time for my own drawing stuffs also.
Cause I'm too tired from thinking about this stuffs.
And done enough drawings from lessons for one day.

Poly life is really busy.
They just push tonnes of stuffs to you everyday.
I’m so exhausted from it.
No choice, I’ll still have to do it.

DIY Pinball Machine Presentation

2009-04-29T21:17:00.002+08:00

I SUCK.
Why I'm always the first to present.
Like Guinea pig.
Anyway, I just anyhow present.
Then the lecturers just give comments and ask questions.
The lecturers give me a confused face when i said "Good afternoon directors, lecturers, and fellow school mates." CAUSE THE DIRECTOR ISN'T THERE.
What else?
I'm the only one who GREET THE DIRECTOR cause I'm the first one.
Gosh.
So NERVOUS lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Then the whole presentation last till around 7.45pm.
OMG. Freaking tired now.
Stomach pain, gastric pain ):

DIY Pinball Machine

2009-04-28T21:36:00.003+08:00

Yeah, the iXD presentation #01: Make a Pinball Machine

I changed a lot of ideas (cause I can't make up my mind) and finally finished it just now.
It's a pinball machine without the levers. How great. 0.0
I tried to do the handle but it kinda fail.
So, i just use my hand to throw the pinball instead. :o

Here's the picture.
Don't vomit.
What can you expect from a DIY?
Machine made from shoebox, black boards, wrapping paper (lol), and painted the surface of board.
Pinball made from tissue paper, newspaper and PVA glue. (:

So stressed nowadays. Lots of homework (which need at least 1-2 days to complete per assignment, as you know art assignments took a long long time...) to be done and handed up next week. Everyday tonnes of homework.
Saddest thing is tomorrow have to listen to presentation from 2.30PM till 8PM!
#R$&^&*^*$@
ROARRRR~

Suppose to meet piggy as he can book out awhile from camp at night.
Crap, now it's gone. ):

FRIDAY!

2009-04-24T19:24:00.005+08:00

Finally it's FRIDAY~
Been waiting for so lonnngggg. ):

Today had 2 hours of communication skills from 8AM to 10AM.
It's better than I thought cause I don't like to communicate or this kinda lessons.
But it turns out alright. (:

After lessons, we had to wait till 2PM to collect our student pass.
So I went AMK Hub with Hosshima, Rin, Karen and Jing Yu.
Bought sushi to eat at our hiding place. Hees.
Then we go chit chat and ARCADE!!!
YAY.
Played the bishi bashi, beatmania kinda game and the japanese drum thingy~
OMG, first time play the drum and now I'm addicted to it.
Then we planned every Friday go out to play arcade. =x
Well, not every week i think.
But it's fun when there's someone accompany you to play. (:

And I wore the same colour shirt with Hosshima today.
Striking pink. HAHA.
Both tees got hearts some more.
Like same shirt. LOL.

Rin recorded Hosshima and I playing the drum thingy.
Will ask her to send me and post in blog soon.
So funny. =p

I finally completed my homework expect the pinball machine.
What the $$#^&U$^&#%($&^(&@#....
=.=
Still have a 3 minute presentation.
URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Will buy iMAC tomorrow at school.
Yipee. Quite excited though.
But $ fly away.
Boohoo. )):

❤ my blog song. :DD

My poly CCA choice~

2009-04-23T17:20:00.004+08:00

Today weather was very bad again.
Super hot. =.=

Almost late for lecture cause I go out late. =p
While taking lrt to sengkang, i saw Hui Qing.
And we took 159 to school together.
Reached at 10.50AM and lecture starts at 11.
YAY~ Just in time.
But the lecture starts at 11.20AM cause the lecturer was late. 0.0

Went to Club Crawl, cca open house, at the sports hall.
There's a lot of people wasting paper and hypnotise you to join their CCA.
But I've already made my choice before I went there.

It's the Sakuran Japanese Culture Club~
Saw 2 cosplayers there?
Got a guy introduced the CCA to me and Rin and I said "OK! I'll join" just as he finished saying.
He was like very shocked. LOL.

So the CCA have activities like drawing manga (Hurray!!), learn some basic japanese communication skills, dancing (OMG, I'm so bad at this), etc.
Thy also said that there will be people from Japan come to Singapore and we'll guide them or something.
Cool. At least I'm able to learn some Japanese. :DDDD

Guess I shall not sell my lolis anymore since I'm joining that.
I'm lazy to do that also. HAHA!
I'm telling everyone that I wanna sell my lolitas from last year till now. =x

That's all for today.
I'm super tired and hungry now. ))))):
Thanks mum for cooking something for me to eat as I never eat lunch these 2 days. :DD

So many stuffs, no time

2009-04-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

Its only 3 days and I have tons of homwwork already. ):
So sad.

Was told the same thing as chicken rice teacher told me.
"You must be confident with your lines. They're to hairy."
I heard many and many times.
But I still made the mistake. ):
And was graded 5/10. Just pass for drawing 5 household objects in lesson.
I'll resubmit it next week cause I'm not sastified with my results.
ROAR. ):

Today, our lecturer still tell us to MAKE A PINBALL MACHINE.
#%%$^%$#
Yeah, got that right.
Wth are we suppose to make this thingy.
We're IXD leh. )):
Somemore, still need to present in front of whole IXD people and lecturer.
SO STRESS SIA!

So many things to do, yet need to worry this and that.
Don't feel like going school already. )):
Everyday have bad news.

Poly, New Life

2009-04-20T20:20:00.002+08:00

Today's the first day of school.
Meet friends at 11.30AM to go for brunch and lessons starts at 1PM.

It's like hours of art lessons today.
Drawing principles of art thingy.
Oh hello again Stippling. :O
Lessons ends at 5PM and went for an hour lecture.

Tomorrow gonna do some colour theory and i hate it cause my painting skills sucks. ):
Still have to bring lotsa things.

Overall, school's not bad today.
I didn't feel sick of going school and restless so far.
But today's weather is so so BAD.
Sweat a lot when I reach school. =.=

That's all for today! (:

Happy 1yr 10mths

2009-04-19T21:20:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went out with piggy and his friend Howe to eat and shop at Tampines.
Then caught him said secrets to his friend.
After forcing him to say what he had said to his friend, it was a surprise for me today for early celebration of our 1yr 10mths.

Guess what?
Around 7.30PM today, i receive a bouquet of pink tulips (12 tulips), a card and a box of chocolate by the delivery man.
Though I knew what he was going to give me, I'm still surprised and happy to receive them.
It's the first time I've receive flowers. (:
And when i read the letter inside, i almost cried.
I'm so touched.

Thanks laogong.

I DON'T WANNA GO SCHOOL TOMORROW.
AWWWWW.

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2009-04-18T01:33:00.003+08:00

gonna get up early tomorrow.
gonna sleep soon.
so many things undone...

Money fly away~

2009-04-15T19:55:00.003+08:00

Today went to NYP for briefing about the timetabling, the laptop program and blah blah.
And spent $150 just to buy art materials from Art Friend. =.=
I thought the Course Coordinator type wrongly by adding one zero on $15. ):
Somemore need to buy Macbook.
No money already lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Boohoo. T.T

School starts next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SAD. ))):

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Just finish watching the movie "Knowing" online.
It was interesting in the beginning with all the capsule and numbers thingy.
And creeps me (as I'm a very timid person) around the middle part with the sound effects and scene.
What I don't like is the end when the alien came out.
Not very logical for me. LOL.
Among all the causes that happened in the movie, the airplane clash is the most exciting part. >w<

Well, it really makes me think of what will happen if the world just ends like that.
And there was news about having a tsunami at around July this year also.
I really don't wish that such tragic will happen again.
As we still have a lot, a lot of things to do in life.
And wishes or goals to fulfill.

My dreams

2009-04-14T17:27:00.003+08:00

Thanks Jia Wei, our group OGL, for these photos. :DDD
Though it's abit late. *cough cough*

Went to check the meaning of my dreams that I've dreamt.
Most of them I've dreamt quite a few times and still remember it.

Flying Dreams
(I'm still having it now and then)

"To dream of flying is usually a pleasant experience and is accompanied by a sense of exhilaration and freedom.
Flying may symbolise liberation from something that's been troubling you.
The obstructions and shackles that have held you down have been released and you can now experience the same sense of freedom that we see in the birds that soar in the sky.
The sky may symbolise consciousness and spirituality so to dream of flying can represent the expansion of your awareness and the unfolding of your higher self.

Think about the things that have been troubling you of late.
Perhaps the difficulty or emotional problem that has grounded you for so long is not as bad as you thought.
Sometimes it is important to tread the paths of life lightly."

Falling Dreams
(I seldom have this nowadays. Last time used to have a lot)

"This is a common dream which usually represents underlying fears and feelings of inadequacy and helplessness.
Interpret your dream by considering your primary fears, current difficulties, and situations in your life that seem to be on a downward spiral, especially those situations that seem outside of your control (financial, romantic,etc.).
Some people believe that if you keep falling in your dream and don't wake up that you will die at the point of impact.
This is absolutely not true.

In a falling dream you wake up out of fear and not because of danger of dying.
Superstition based dream interpretations say that if you fall a long distance in your dream and get hurt, be prepared for really hard times ahead; but if you fall and are not injured your upsets will be minor and temporary."

Being Chased
(It's always very scary when I dreamt of that. And when I woke up, I can't catch my breath.)

"Being chased in a dream indicates that you may be feeling you have a lot of responsibilities that you are having a hard time keeping up with.
This dream is often known as a "stress dream," indicating that its presence is a sign to try to relax and slow down.

Also means that it is time for you to set out on your destined path.
But you are refusing to let go of elements in your life that are hindering your quest.
If you are caught by that being, you have much work ahead of you.
If you escape, you are almost free -- your life-quest is taking a new road."

Death
(I still remember that I've dreamt of someone shoots me with a gun. After that, what I heard was blood dripping inside my brain and I can't even see anything. 0.0 )

"This dream's analysis depends on the emotional content -- if you awoke with a dreadful sense of real death, it could be a true death-dream and you have sensed someone's passing.
This happens to sensitive people.
If, however, you dream of death without having dark emotions, it has the meaning of release from current worries and actually signifies its opposite: a recovery, a rebirth is about to occur in your life.

Feelings of terror, anxiety or even liberation can dominate our mood upon waking.
As with any other type of dream, there is no one answer for what the dream means.
Generally speaking, however, dreams about death signify much needed change in our lives.
Such dreams typically herald symbolic rather than literal death.
In this way, death dreams let us know that some part of the self needs to be radically reworked, whether it be one's attitudes, emotions, or relationships."

Playing
(I've always dreamt that I'm in a arcade, and it's always the same arcade, to catch dolls. And I always caught A LOT of them.
On Friday, I also dreamt that I'm in a arcade, a different one, playing something similar to the game Pop'n Music. It's like the musical game but with chinese songs and MVs. LOL!)

Playing emphasises that your creativity is unrestricted by an overtly serious attitude. You may have an attitude that likes to break the rules of convention. A playful attitude towards work can sometimes be more productive than the drudgery of monotonous repetition.

Artwork #002

2009-04-13T17:32:00.002+08:00

Finished 2 artwork for submission today.

Don't understand what it has to do with Good vs Evil?
Just go my deviantart account to see the description. Blah.
User name is what I'll always use. XD

Artwork #001

2009-04-10T17:49:00.005+08:00

I've just finish with the deviantart contest thingy.
White tablet VS Black tablet. Whoo. -.-
Not very sastify cause my background sucks.
LOL.
Anyway, glad I'm finished!
though i have no chance of winning *cough*

Maybe will think of more ideas to submit?

New way of Blogging

2009-04-09T04:09:00.004+08:00

My new way of posting.
Read from up to down yea?
Erm, I tried to make it interesting in the end? =.=
Btw, I wanna change blogskin soon...?
Tired of it already. =x
But I'm lazy to change LAHH.

(p.s: i find my post very childish today.)

Deviant Art Contest : Good VS Evil (:

2009-04-08T14:18:00.004+08:00

1st prize:
- Adobe Photoshop CS4
- Adobe Illustrator CD4
- Wacom Intuos4 large (active area of 12.8" x 8") pen tablet
- a $1,000 American Express gift card
- a 1 year subscription to deviantART
- a deviantART Artist's Bag
- a devWEAR shirt of winner's choice (depending on availability.)
(Total Approximate Retail Value ("ARV") : $2,946.)

The prizes are GOOODDDDD.
I want, I want!
LOL.
But it's impossible for me to get the prizes. )):

I'll like to join the contest though.
I've a idea but not sure I'll be able to draw it out.
The theme is Good VS Evil.
I hope I have time to join. ^^

Deadline is : May 19, 2009

Elmo Marathon

2009-04-07T22:01:00.002+08:00

Something for entertainment.

There's still someone who don't know Elmo. LOL!

'Your eyes pop out?"
"Where's Sesame Street?" ROFL.

So funny lah. HHAAHHAHA. >.<

...............

2009-04-04T00:48:00.001+08:00

"我记得第一次分手
我伤到心碎还不罢休
握紧懦弱的拳头
不懂彼此要的自由"

Real life pokemon? WTH.

Last day of Orientation '09

2009-04-02T21:20:00.007+08:00

Yah, I skipped yesterday's orientation and went for the last day today.
I was rather nice than boring, compared to first day.

Our class were doing the presentation board for the whole day so times flies quite fast.
Took group photos, slack around, chit-chit and laugh with one another.
I'm quite depressed when I saw my friends drew so well on their boards. ):
Feel like I'm not good enough..

Anyway, the topic for our presentation this year is 'Who am I, What are we?'
So we're making boards of our own but must be related to our group as well.
So we thought of using the MRT route to symbolise that we're from different parts of Singapore but we're bonded together as one. (:

Around 3plus, we went to NYP's stage to present as a whole.
Quite nervous and excited cause it's been a long long time since I presented on the stage.

We introduce ourselves and the meaning of our boards to the director.
After that, we had a secret message for Jia Wei and Daniel (our ORLs).
We said 'We love you Jia Wei and thank you Daniel (cause he's always MIA and leaving us behind)'. HAHA.

Went home around 7PM?
Not so tiring at first but drained out when I reached home.

Btw, I found out I'm the youngest in my group. 0.0

Here's some pics taken today. (:
IxD 03 - SUPERMAN~!

My board (:

Can you see the MRT map?

Busy working...

Lastly, class photo~! Missing out 2 people I think...

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Yay, yay.
Done!
Hot from the oven. HAHA!

Sigh ):

2009-04-01T21:28:00.003+08:00

Hope every decision I made and everything I've done is right...

A preview of what I've done today.
Will continue tomorrow after orientation or the next day if I'm tired.

I hate orientation >:(

2009-03-31T20:19:00.004+08:00

Ya, today's the first day of orientation of SIDM.

Guess what?
I turned in at 12 plus and around 3-4AMplus then i slept.
Which means I only slept for 3hours.
Sigh...

Took bus there and reach around 8.30am plus and the Atrium was full of people.
Took quite a long time to queue for registration.

After that they separate us into groups of 4 in interaction design.
I'm in group 3 and had around 15 classmates?
Played ice-breaker and blah blah blah.
Hate those games cause very stupid.
Get to know my classmate's names along the way.

We walk around the campus after lunch, which is super sucky, for 5hours?
Damn tired and hot. ):
After that go to listen to some talks and go home.

Took bus 159 back home and it was crowded with people.
And I suddenly had gastric pain again.
I was like fighting my way back home. ):

Conclusion:
I HATE ORIENTATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Super boring and tired.

Tomorrow will have water games which will make your whole body wet.
I'm not interested and can't play because of some girls problem.
And still need to run here and there.

What else?
We need to make a 8" x 8" Styrofoam sculpture or something.
I can't do cause last time in Secondary school I got tried before and the teacher said that people got asthma cannot breath in those particles ( when you cut them).
Need to wear mask to cover my mouth and nose. =.=

Meaning that tomorrow will be a uber boring day for me.
I'll consider whether I'm going for tomorrow's orientation.

Btw, I saw a group facilitator who looks like Jing Xiang with different specs and smaller eyes.
More like his brother.
LOL.
And he's name is Jun Xiang.
I wonder if they're really siblings.
I smsed Jing Xiang but he never reply.
Oh well.

Shaman King

2009-03-30T18:21:00.004+08:00

Just finish. Heh.
Hao VS Yoh ad Ren~
My favourite characters. =p

Tomorrow orientation!
AHHHHHHHH. >w<

Not ready to wake up early.
Not ready on what to wear.
Not ready to 'do exercise'.
.________.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
So moody right now.
I miss him.
Still need to wait for 5 more days before we meet.

Though it's a good thing that we miss each other.
But sometimes it's unbearable.

Imagine next time he go onboard to ship for 6 months...
Sigh.

Magical Girl

2009-03-29T17:33:00.002+08:00

Done this from 12plus to now.
Tried my best on the hair.
My first artwork~ (that I really put in effort)
XDD

My drawing tablet :DD

2009-03-28T21:10:00.005+08:00

Yesterday I wanted it.
Today, it's mine!
WAHAHA~ =p

Went out to ViVo with piggy just now and he bought me this.
(p.s: thanks laogong)
Hees.
And it's white. (:

I'll be busy drawing the whole week.
Too bad I have orientation next Tuesday till Friday.
Sadded. ):

This is what i drew just now.
Hao. (:

drawing tablet (:

2009-03-27T16:40:00.006+08:00

i want one now. >.<
Hands very itchy. LOL.
The white colour is so cute! XDD
But will get a black one cause white will get dirty easily.

The blue one also not bad but Singapore never sell.
Think buying a A5 size?
Cause A6 like too small. =x

...

I still have to buy Macbook. ):

Insomnia Report #002

2009-03-21T04:58:00.002+08:00

Now is 5.49AM.
I'm still awake.
My second time this week.
I've been laying on bed, awake, for 2hours.

Perhaps today is because I think too much..
I lay on bed, closed my eyes, and things/problems just appeared.
I tried to stop and sing some songs a loud but no cure.
So I just wake up and use lappy to burn my energy.

Previously was on Wednesday that I stayed up till 8AM plus then sleep.
And woke up at 11plus to go Kbox.

Parents nag at me yesterday morning when they saw that I'm still awake.
And I always never sleep at night.
I know they concern about me but this is not I wanted.
I hope I can fall asleep easily and sleep well but I can't.

I sleep early at 12AM on Friday cause I'm really exhausted.

Tomorrow suppose to go out with piggy.
I guess I have to cancel it.
Sigh, I want to sleep.

KBOX!

2009-03-19T20:43:00.002+08:00

Today went Hougang Plaza Kbox with Germaine, Meng Yun and Li Ling.
Sing from 2-7PM.
Had lotsa fun and laughter.
Erm, will not post too much about it.
Waiting for photos from them XD

happy birthday polar...

2009-03-17T05:08:00.002+08:00

Hope you are doing well up there. (:

Insomnia Report #001

2009-03-12T16:30:00.001+08:00

Went off to bed after watching Vampire Knight episode 7, while waiting for last episode of Skip Beat! next week, and eating Macdonalds.
It's around 1plus or 2AM and finally fall asleep at 3plus AM.
Oh, I also check my course's student list.
Quite a number of girls than I expected.
Guess that's a good sign?

That 1 hour on bed my mind kept thinking a lot of things.
I tried to forget and sleep but the problems just 'pop' out like that.
It's always frustrating for me to sleep at night.

Woke up at 1.30PM today.
I still felt sleepy.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm a vampire.
Tired in the morning, energetic in the night.

羅志祥 - 幸福不滅 MV

It's coming back

2009-03-10T20:54:00.004+08:00

Hello readers.

Yesterday can't fall asleep again.
Don't know why.
I lay on bed, eyes closed for 2hours, I still can't sleep.
So, I switch on my computer to watch Skip Beat! online to make my eyes tired.
Finally around 7AM, I can sleep peacefully.

This is getting worse and worse.
It's like everyday I have to force myself to sleep.
Didn't sleep well for a week.
Very frustrating. ):

It's not that I wanted.
Sigh, I don't know what should I do.

Anyway, showcase the banners I made today and yesterday night. (:
Enjoy~

Sick again

2009-03-08T23:25:00.003+08:00

I'm down with flu~ >.<
Yesterday went to NYP with piggy to hand in the enrolment form.
Who knows the office never open on weekends.
So I have to go down tomorrow alone. X(
Went to AMK hub after that to walk around and watch the movie "PUSH".

Recently busy doing banners for blog as piggy gave me his photoshop software. ^^
I like the banner I'm using that I've done today, cause it's pink colour~! :D __________________________________________________________

Just made another and ugly one. Failed.

Found something very touching from a stranger blog, cause I was looking for anime photos to edit. LOL.

Girl: Do you really love me?
Boy: Of course I do.
Girl: I wanna hear you say it.
Boy: I don’t have to.
Girl: Why not?
Boy: Because...
Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words.
Boy: I can’t...
The girl started to cry softly and said: Then you don't love me...
The two continued to walk in silence.
They reached the girls home.
Girl: Why?
Boy: Do you really want to know?
Girl: (hesitantly) Yes.
He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her nose and whispered in her ear,
"Because three words are not enough..."

Awww. >.< so sweet. ______________________________________________________________
Edit a new photo for my blog profile. :D

Worn out ):

2009-03-06T20:20:00.001+08:00

Exhausted now.
Gonna get sick soon.

I didn't go to LZX's autograph session today.
I know I gonna regret when I see the photos posted by fans.
Honestly, I have no mood to go also.

What I wanna do now is SLEEP.
Suppose to take a nap just now till dinner time but because of the enrolment thing, I used my energy to read and print the documents. (This is what happens when you do things in the last minute)
Well, I have to send the enrolment documents before tomorrow in the morning so it can be delivered to NYP before 10 March...

I'm hungry also.
Ate breakfast buffet from 12plus and carry my empty stomach till now cause I have not eat dinner yet.

I planned to make some banner or watch digimon with piggy at night.
Guess I have to find time to sleep after eating dinner so I have energy to do all these. ):

What happen?

2009-03-04T17:07:00.003+08:00

I don't know what's wrong with me yesterday.
Don't feel like sleeping and stuff.

I went to watch some anime till 3plus in the morning

and cook noodles to eat,cause I'm hungry.
After that, I watch some anime again to kill time.
Then I waited for piggy to wake up, which is 6.30AM,

to send him a sms asI don't want to wake him up in the middle of the night.
He had fire fighting lessons today, and I scared he don't have enough sleep.

I went to lay down on my bed after SMS him

and closed my eyes.
I don't know why I cried the moment he replied.
Maybe I'm just thinking a lot of things he had done to/for me.

I just fell asleep till today 4PM.
My eyes were still tired

butI know I have to get up cause it's late...

Sometimes I wonder if all the things I've done is worth it.
Sometimes I wonder if every story have a happy ending.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm still in my dreams.
Sometimes I wonder if I've take the right step.
Sometimes I wonder if all the things had changed...

But everything is okay, for now...
Guess I shouldn't think so much. (:

Digimon Adventure~

2009-03-03T01:39:00.006+08:00

ROFLLLLL~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hees. (:
I was watching Digimon with piggy just now.
Digimon Marathon! LOL.
Watch 9 episodes in a row. :D
Then talk about weird names for the digimons.
Really miss the opening 'Butterfly' song. HAHA.

Lastly, cute Gabumon to...

Kanashock-mon. LOL~~~!

Deviant Art

2009-02-23T21:51:00.008+08:00

Been browsing deviant artworks.
My hand become itchy again.
Feel like drawing some things.
LOL.
Envy those people who draw and paint well.
I want a drawing template now~
HAHA.
Cause I saw something attractive like these.

And photography. (:

Using high speed camara. :D

My photography skill. =x
Took these quite long ago using my cybershot phone. :D
I was in a bad mood that time and went for a stroll outside.
Emo. LOL.

Carl's Jr Breakfast

2009-02-21T20:26:00.005+08:00

Today went out with piggy again, cause it's weekend, for breakfast at Carl's Jr.
Our second time eating there for breakfast. (:
The sourdough is damn nice, but butter-ry. =/

We shop around and went Orchard.
Bought Wang Lee Hong's CD and went home.

Then at my house, we watch the 'everything' MV till cry.
Yes, both of us cried. 0.0
Piggy cried first. =x
Cause we thought about a lot of things we've overcome in the past.
And we still made it. (:

We laugh a lot again after watching some Youtube videos. :D
Took some unglam pictures using webcam too. =x
Found out that piggy looks like Shinigami. WAHAHAHA.
So scary.

HAHAHAH! ROFL. XD

Around 7plus, he went to his friend's birthday party at Hougang.
So, i went to eat dinner and collect my enrolment form from my mailbox.
I wonder if there's someone I know is in the same poly and school as me.
Hmmmm.

I just open the enrolment form, flip some (many) of the documents inside.
And I saw something highlighted in bold.

As part of the requirements upon entering our program, each student is required to own a Mac-based laptop.

WTH WTH??????
I wanna bang on wall.
First, piggy already bought for me a Vaio, which is not MAC.
Second, I don't like use Mac.
One of the reasons is it let me think of....chicken rice, projects .____.
Third, what should i do now???????
Geez. Damn it. RWAAAAARrRR. ))))))):
Really don't know what else should I do. SAD!

Briefly reading more details in the booklet, exams falls somewhere around my birthday.
NO~~~ ):
First holis on June, second on September and October this year.

My Valentine's Day celebration ♥

2009-02-15T20:51:00.002+08:00

Piggy came to my house first to put all his things and my pressie.
A PINK VAIO LAPPY~~~!
Really thanks laogong. (:
I just gave him a big bag of tibits. 0.0
Erm, at least I made an effort to search for that jersey kays. =x

Went to Singapore Flyer after that.
My first time riding it. (:
It's not REALLY fun but it's great to look at the scenery at the top.
We went to eat popeye chickens after that.
Delicious. ^^

Decided to watch some movies at PS but no slot.
So we just walk around and went back home together.

We stayed up late till 5plus AM.
Doing stuffs like eating, playing games, watching Resident Evil movie, youtube videos and joking around.
Though it's just a simple night but we really have lots of fun. ^^
I kept thinking that i was in a dream.

Woke up at around 11.30 AM and I woke him up as he's sleeping at my living room. =x
Then we played some PS2 games and ate brunch.
Haha.

Then we chit chat a little and played with my soft toys before he go home. 0.0
It's around 4PM.

I really enjoyed the time we spent together.
It's short but memorable.
Hope you'll come to stay over again, so we won't have to worry about the time. =x

I ♥ you. :D

♥ happy valentine's

2009-02-14T03:13:00.003+08:00

♥,

Miracle that I went to sleep today at around 10.30pm.

But, i woke up a few minutes later when I wanted to fall asleep by my sis.
Climb out of bed, open my room's door then she say nothing.

Never mind, I went back sleep again.
11.20PM, woke up again cause my brother called me to help him open my house's door.
I didn't pick up the phone. =x
Cause I was too tired.
The feeling is like eating those medicine which makes u drowsy.

After that, I stay awake till now.
Geez, why can I just sleep peacefully for one night. =.=

Piggy going to stay over at my house tomorrow.
Another miracle.
My parents allowed. (:
But he have to sleep at the living room of course. =x
But we never planned to sleep anyway.
Planned to use computer and play games.
Haha.
First time we no need to worry about the time to go out and reach home early. :D
Very excited.

Tomorrow we planned to make some fruit juice but I have not find the blender yet. =x
Whoops.

He just finished his duty at camp and now going back home.
A few hours we'll be going out to celebrate Valentine's.
And it's my first time to celebrate it officially. ^^
We'll be like two life zombies walking around. LOL.

Wish eveyone happy valentine's! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

羅志祥, a guy who i loved

2009-02-07T22:24:00.003+08:00

i never regretted i read Yan Ling's blog.
i was like nodding my head to every sentence she said.

Last time, everytime i surf the net is all about him.
The first website i'll ever type is forum.show4ever.net

Because of 羅志祥,
I've support an idol till so crazy.
I've booked cab to chase after him and fetch him from airport.
I've queue up or squeeze with people for hours to attend autograph sessions.
I've met people who are as crazy as me.
I've form my own group, 黑白帮, with friends that love 羅志祥 like me.
I've spent so much $ on someone.
I've attended my first concert with the most expensive ticket.
I first met an idol in real life.
I got my first handshake with an idol.
I got my first autograph by an idol.
I bought 3 similar albums in one go.
I spent almost all of my time on him.

And because of 羅志祥,
I met my boyfriend.

But now, I'm like a total stranger.
I don't even go to forum to check on him.
I don't even know about his events.
I don't even talk to my 黑白帮 friends.
I don't even watch BFB anymore.
Last time, i used to skip my CCA just because to watch BFB cause can see him.

He is coming to singapore on April, I don't even know until I saw Yan Ling's blog.
I'm such a failure as a fan.

But one thing that I won't change is to support him.
It's been 2 years plus since I supported him.
I'll still buy his albums and listen to his songs.

I still tried my very best to search for his album.
For example beginning of the year, I went to so many places just to buy his album.
Cause i regretted that i never preorder from forum and i thought i'll never buy that album again cause it's limited.
In the end, a few days of searching, I found my treasure.

And, when i was buying his album, i still have that kinda feeling.
My heart will beat super duper fast till i can't catch my breathe.
It's true.
i was shocked when it happened this year when I bought his album.
I thought I lost this feeling forever.

He gave me lots and lots of memories that I'll never forget for my whole life.

I agree to Yan Ling.
He is becoming more and more famous.
And everyone love and like him now.
Sometimes i just wonder if i'm still his '2year plus' fan.
Cause other people who just become a fan of 羅志祥 know him more than me.
And supports him more than me.

But I still have a place for him.
As he changed my life. (:

Thanks SO SO much, 羅志祥.

Now then I get the chance to see this MV.
Can you imagine? =.=
Very cute and funny. (:
Quite touching also in another way.

羅志祥 - 撐腰MV

Sentosa Trip (:

2009-02-07T20:10:00.008+08:00

Today went to Sentosa with piggy. (:
Meet him early in the morning at 10plus and went there together.

First, we went to Underwater World and see those weird and cute creatures. :DD
It's been a long long time since i been there.
You can't imagine how big are the fishes. =.=
Took a lot of photos.

Then, we went to the 4D theater to see the Pirates and Log Ride.
There's water splashing out in front of you, wind and sound effects behind and the seats really shakes with the scenes.
Really have lots of fun there.
Kept shouting and laughing. XDD

We went to Dolphin Lagoon after that.
They're really adorable, clever and cute. (:
And it's pink colour.
Lol.
Before the performance, we went to eat lunch while waiting.

Last stop, Siloso beach.
Actually we just walk and chat.
Never play with sand cause later we dirty ourselves. =p

Photos time~ ^^

Can't stop laughing at this. LOL. XD

Take a break and enjoy yummie dessert. ((:

Thanks for a great day today. (:
♥ you. ^^

Insomnia ):

2009-02-06T22:35:00.004+08:00

As someone wants me to update my blog, here it goes...

I've never update my blog for about a month.
Many things happened.
But they come to the same answer- my family allowed me to have a relationship.

Of course I know it's not easy to maintain a life-long relationship.
We already have a lot of problems to solve inside.

Let's talk about something else.
This is what I found out that I'm suffering from these few days or maybe from the beginning when i posted in my blog that I can't sleep.
From wiki and ambiencr.com.

Insomnia
People with insomnia often complain about:
*Fatigue and daytime sleepiness
*Moodiness
*Irritability or anger
*Lack of concentration and poor memory
*Upset stomach
*Mistakes/accidents at work or while driving

-> Onset insomnia
difficulty falling asleep at the beginning of the night, often associated with anxiety disorders.
->Middle-of-the-Night Insomnia
Insomnia characterized by difficulty returning to sleep after awakening in the middle of the night or waking too early in the morning. Also referred to as nocturnal awakenings. Encompasses middle and terminal insomnia.

Transient insomnia
Transient insomnia lasts from days to weeks.
It can be caused by another disorder, by changes in the sleep environment, by the timing of sleep, severe depression, or by stress.
Its consequences - sleepiness and impaired psychomotor performance - are similar to those of sleep deprivation.

How you live your life affects how you sleep?

-> Eating
Overeating can cause you to feel bloated, making it uncomfortable to lie down and difficult to sleep. Heavy, spicy, or high-sugar foods in your diet can cause heartburn, which in turn can keep you awake.

->Stress
Being overly concerned about almost anything in your life can make your mind too active and contribute to insomnia. It makes it difficult to relax and sleep if you are worrying about work, school, family or your or a loved one's health.

Some causes to Insomnia (**=yes, *=sometimes)

Do you spend time in bed not sleeping? **
Is the temperature in the room comfortable? *
Do you try to force yourself to sleep? **
Do you look at clocks when you are trying to sleep? **
Are you being interrupted when trying to sleep? *

Dear family...

2009-01-15T02:45:00.003+08:00

I'm not standing on who's side now.
Just saying the (my) facts.

Sis, you did said that I can have relationship with him again later.
But, what's the difference between now and then?
Maybe both of us will be more mature, but how long does it takes?

I admit that time I'm too rush to have a breakup with him without making clear of what's happening/our problem.
And I'm too optimistic and don't trust him since he betrayed me that time.
But, being apart will not change that problem.
What if I trust him again?
What if his mum really accepted me?
If that's true, can we talk about this peacefully to solve the problems?

You all said that he's not a good person and never loved me before, just want to cheat my feelings.
Yes, it's true in the first place.
But after so many things happened, he didn't gave up.
He still want to face our family even though you all hate him so much.

He's not like my previous boyfriend.
Just one e-mail you typed scare him to nowhere.
That kind of person is the one who really don't love me.
Just because you found out of our relationship, my ex just left me and find another one 1 week later.

First, I must say that he's wrong.
He shouldn't betrayed me in the first place since he said that he loved me so much.
He shouldn't anyhow scold vulgar or being rude to our family.
He shouldn't sweet talk with me so much till we don't even trust him.
He shouldn't just blame everything on us on the first place.

But, there's also something that we've done wrong.
We shouldn't being rude to them too.
That time er ge called him and scolded him vulgar too.
Even though is testing whether he would scold back, it will be the same thing too if that happens to er ge cause they are bad tempered people.
And I know he had changed cause I told him to.
He did scold me before when I said something wrong, that means there's also vulgaries.
Not like you said that he didn't.
He's being rude to our family cause we're being rude to them.
In the first place, we shouldn't scold he's mum a B*tch too.
It's really not very nice.

My family, you all must understand me, or at least how I feel.
I'm saying out all these that's keeping in my mind for a long time and you all say stop contacting with him means stop without considering my feelings.
I'm sorry that I betrayed you all the first place.
I'm really sorry.
But,
Who like to see us scolding one another like that?
I really hope we can settle down and talk calmly.
I really want both families to live together happily in the future.

I know you all are too worried about me.
But if the problem switched over, whereby you all allow me to have relationship but his family doesn't, and they just run to our house and scold us, will we feel happy?
No.

I wanted to be happy.
I gave up this relationship because of my family.
Cause I know, by doing this, you all will be happy.
But I'm not.
I'm really not.
It's easy to give up but it's not in my heart.
Do you all understand this kinda feeling?

For these 3-4 months, I must say that I can't fall in love with other people anymore.
Maybe, for now, a few years?
I don't know.

You all must be thinking "How you know?"
Yes, I know cause I tried to go out with a boy gender friend alone and I'm like in a lost.
I'm just alone with a friend who is a boy and I'm like that.
I don't want to say who.
But I just went home in 5-10 minutes after meeting him.
He bought movie tickets already but I didn't watch it and went home.
If you all don't believe me, I still keep that ticket with the entry piece there.

Cause his exsistance changed me.
He taught me how to be brave.
Changed my life and how I look at things.
And I'm not brain-washed with his sweet talks.

At least he really did improve and encourage me to improve on my Chinese that time when I got back my results.
He showed me his 'O' level results and told me not to give up no matter what.
He's being by my side on that day itself when I received my Chinese results, and I'm really disppointed.
You can ask my friends how disppointed I am that day as how high I'm expecting my results to be.

You know, our family don't really tell one another about how we love each other or our problems.
That's what he can.
If you want me to tell you all my problems personally, I really don't know how to.
Even if it's writing notes to each other, I also can't.

I must say again I'm not standing on who's side.
It's 4am now.
I'm staying up late to type all this cause I'm hiding this for very long time.
Mostly because our house's internet is still down.

I'll just hope for the best.
Even if just friends with him, I'm also happy.
Really normal friends, I swear.
Cause I have to trust him from the start in order to accept him.
Not like last time I said but I didn't do it.

I know when you all read this, you will grab me to explain a lot of things again.
But, all I feel and wanted to say is all here.
All typed here.
So, whatever you all ask, I will still say the same.
That's all.

After I wrote this, if next time he still betray me, I'll just admit my life.
At least staying with him I'll feel happy.

2009. the new beginning

2009-01-15T02:15:00.000+08:00

Got back my results on the 12th.
I'm so super nervous that time.
When it's my turn (which is first) to take my result, I kept asking Mr Hafeez...
"Did I do well? Can I go poly?"
And his answer was to put my result slip in front of me and said "Can~"

Shocked that I didn't cry.
Yes, didn't ._.
While my friends around me were crying. lol.

Happy that...:
- I passed my English 0.0
- my chinese improved from C6 to B3, with my oral/aural of ONLY a pass (:
- I amazingly passed my humanities (which i failed since starting of sec 4) with B3! ((:
- Mr Hafeez actually said "very good" of passing my combined science with a B3~ (((:
(didn't expect that myself)

Duper uper sad that...:
- I score a lousy B4 for my art = efforts wasted, damn. ):
- I had a SUPER poor C6 for my E-maths )):
(I'm expecting a B something, but at least I passed)

Quite poor as I expect a 15 or so for my L1R4.
But at least I'm eligible for poly. (:

I must thank my family for giving me anti-stress on my studies, which is sometimes bad cause I'll be lazy. =p
Thank my teachers for teaching and conducting extra lessons. (:
Thank my friends for their time to explain and teach me. ^^
Lastly, thank you... for encouraging me and pushing me to do better everytime. (as can see from my chinese results)
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Speaking of this, there's not much worries for now.

Only problem is to get in the course I wanted.
I must say that 9/10 of the courses I chosen are in Design school.
I don't care how poor my results were, I still choose it cause that's my interest. (:
I'm interested in Psychology studies too but it's really impossible for an aggregate of 15 to go into a course of 9.

And, relationships.
Sigh...
I wonder how long must my heart hurt me.
Yes, I know that I never consider my family's feelings before I contact him.
But, I must say, who consider my feelings?

Primary Schoolmates Gathering!

2009-01-08T16:04:00.008+08:00

Sorry for the late post here. My house's Internet is still down. )):

03/01/2009 - Gathering with my 5/6 Kindness Primary School classmates
It's been 4-5 years since we last met.
Have loads of FUN and laughter. :DDD

First, I meet up with Jolene and Shi Ping at Hougang Interchange to go Tampines together.
I was the first to reach, followed by Jolene, then Shi Ping.
We started to laugh at one another already. LOL.

After that, we took bus 27 (?) and saw Wen Hao (our organiser).
He didn't change much. Still recognisable.
He's really damn tall compare to last time. o.o

Then, we meet Chee Cheun at Tampines MRT station.
And Jolene, Shi Ping and Me went to Pastamania for lunch while the guys went to arcade.
After 20 minutes or so, Yu Ying came.
She never changed much also. (:

Shawn joined us after that.
I'll say he lost lots and lots of weight. =xx
Seriously. 0.0
And tall.

We went to toys'r'us and walk around.
Then Wen Hao and Chee Cheun went to fetch Jing Xiang.
I don't even know when he appeared behind us.
Shi Ping and I were in a shock when we saw him.
He seems like a stranger to us yet his character is still the same.
Walking like floating, talking with no expressions. HAHA!
(p.s: maybe it's because he get rid of his mushroom hairstyle =xxx)

Went to watch the movie, Seven Pounds after that.
It's a really touching movie and heard many people sniffing at the end of the show.

Wen Hao and Chee Cheun ran off half way, which left us nowhere to go.
The organiser ran off first. =.=

We decided to go bowling at Hougang.
Met Siew Wai on the way.
What a coincidence. (:

Shi Ping and I just sit down there and watch them play.
My reason is I'm a lousy bowler and I wore skirt that day, and it's short ._.
After that, Shi Ping and I went home while they stayed to play one more game.

PHOTOS TIME! XD
Bowling @ Hougang

3 besties ((:

Many many shots with Shi Ping. :D

Yu Ying and Me (:

Me and Jolene (:

Shawn, Me and Jolene

Jing xiang and Shawn - wanna act Ah beng. LOL :0

NG!

Girls (:

Group photos, without Wen Hao and Chee Chuen

New Year Wishes

2008-12-30T16:24:00.004+08:00

Guitar Geek~
My highscore =p
Love this game much much in facebook.
Too bad there's only 6 songs. ):

Now at work but nothing to do.
But still need to OT~

Wishlist
* Having good results for my 'O' level (a must)
* Somehow have a laptop of my own (and it's pink colour) ^^
* More money for clothings (and arcade) (:
* Decorate my own room (aka draw and paint on the wall on my own, which is quite impossible cause I don't dare)
* I can still have energy even if I turn in late = more time
* Everyone will stay be happy
* Can forget about what had happened for the past 2 years

Reasons why I hate arcade

2008-12-29T09:36:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to PS with min*2, play arcade again. ((:
Spent a lot of $ there and met some very weird people.

At X-ZONE, we saw some uncle playing Jukebox (forget the name but somehow like that).
He was really enjoying himself.
Dancing all the way.
LOL.

Then we went inside PS to shop awhile and up to the arcade inside.
Wanted to catch some soft toys but failed again. ):

We just played finish a musical game (don't know what's the name but my current favourite arcade game ^^), i saw someone who look like Kenneth.
So i peeped (cause that guy was behind his bunch of friends).
Then his friend suddenly approached me with his phone in front of me and asked for my handphone number.
A BIG BIG 'HUH?' inside my mind. 0.0
I didn't see his face clearly cause I just walk away.
I mean I won't be friends with those kind of people.
Anyhow do what they like. =.=

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Life @ work.

MSN-ing.

My handwritten messages.

Cutie panda. (:

In love with him again. (:

2008-12-27T17:31:00.002+08:00

Happy belated X'mas.
A very very bad Christmas for me.
My good buddy came and I just whine in pain on my bed.
And sleep all day in pain till night.
Sigh.
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Today went to buy Luo Zhi Xiang's preorder before going to work. (yes, on Saturday)
I'm SOOOOO sad when I went to Sembawang Music Store and they said they're out of order.
Then SOOOOOOOO happy when I went to Popular and saw him at the counter. :DDDD

Don't know when will my house's internet be back again.
Or what time can I go back home. ):

Happy Christmas Eve!

2008-12-24T10:12:00.003+08:00

I WANT LUO ZHI XIANG PREORDER!!!!! X(((((((((((((((((((((((
No chance to buy, now no more.
Went to many places find also can't preorder.
Too far also very lazy to go.
Hais........

Sigh, today's Christmas eve and I still need to work.
Quite a lot of invitation to celebration and meetups this week.

First, kbox with Germaine and Meng Yun.
They're going kbox today and I can't go because of work. ):
We've been discussing going to Kbox since before Os.
Sad, can't join them. ))):

Secondly, Andy's BBQ Christmas party tomorrow.
I'm not sure whether I want to go or not cause it starts late at 6.30pm.
Think my parents won't allow cause I'll be home late.
Not sure yet, I didn't ask them.
I don't want to disappoint him also since he kindly ask me to go. *white eyed*
Our Prestige family also going.
Headache.

Thirdly, primary school outing held by Wen Hao.
I was so so shocked that time he called me while I'm outside with sis.
It's been so long since we meet up.
However, can't go because of work again.
It's held on the 26th, which is month end and need to OT. )))):

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You know what?
I've gained 2kg in one month!!!
OMG OMG.
NO!
I'm fat, I'm fat.
Need to cut down food, do exercise.
I thought I can maintain at 42-43kg.
BUT, now I'm 45kg. (a horror when I weigh my weight yesterday)
NO~
Too much sweets, too much oily stuffs.
Been eating heavy lunch and dinner when I started work.
But I don't think I can cut down.
I've become a big fat panda. ):

【心理測驗】 Personality Disorder

2008-12-23T12:31:00.003+08:00

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	High
Dependent Personality Disorder:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High

What's Your Best Quality? Your Result: Personality Your best quality is your personality! People like you because you are an all around good person. You have good manners and values. You also like to express your personal style and interests.
Loving
Sense of Humor
Intelligence
Out-Going
Ambitious

True, true...
Sigh, tiring day at work again. ):

Office Christmas Party~

2008-12-22T19:33:00.002+08:00

As my home's internet is down (again), I'll post at work.
Now having my OT. )):

Today had my first time office Christmas party~!
Quite fun and laughed a lot.
Mostly because of TS. LOL.
*FIGHT! (inside joke) *
WAHAHA.

Received quite a few gifts, mostly chocos.
and I ate all of them in just few hours. =p
I'm too hungry.

Will post the photos next time if possible.
Now, see my biggy mouth panda~ :D
LOL. So cute. (:

Is this a dream?

2008-12-19T10:20:00.004+08:00

Working and post blog again.
Yesterday went to watch Twilight with Elmo, Joelle, sis and min*2.
It's super nice. But quite bored at the beginning cause I think the storybook is more interesting with more details.
I love behind the action parts. (:
And Jasper 'goldfish' face. LOL!
He's face is always in pain. WAAHAH.
Overall, still the best.

I also dreamt of something earlier when I woke up today.
Is it a dream or really in reality?
I don't know.
Everything just repeat again.
You lose me, you say you love me, you say you want me back.
Sigh.
Maybe I just think too much yesterday and have this weird dream.

I don't know why I just can't control and cry.
Then I just ran to the toilet.
hope nobody sees it.

Post some things that I played in facebook again.
Superpoke! Pets. (:
My Ah Pan.
Grow up already. =p

Earn very hard for coins and experience, Pet Society.
4 of my beautiful rooms.
Thanks Jie Wei for some of the expensive things. ((:

Heart Pain.

2008-12-16T14:40:00.003+08:00

Sighhhhh.
Now at work while posting.

Today very unlucky.
Almost all the orders I can do all have problems.
The price wrong or don't know what's wrong with it.
So there's nothing much for me to do.
Very bored.
But looking forward to dinner later.
Going eat Kushinbo at Suntec.

So... there's nothing much for me to post about.
Got this weird feeling again.
Heart very pain.
Hais.

Here are the things I've done at work.
Using paint to draw some pandas.

Create this using Facebook.
My Valentine family.

Boring Weekend

2008-12-14T18:56:00.003+08:00

I chatted with Indrani on MSN yesterday afternoon.
Finally get to contact her after one month?
She's doing fine.
And she watched Twilight already ._.
Humph, never wait for me.
Btw, it was 4am in the morning at Norway while 4 in the afternoon in S'pore when I chatted with her. 0.0
She said she had nothing to do, and her electricity and water supply been cut off due to snow.
She can't get out of her house also cause the snow blocked out her door.
All she can do is sleep. LOL.
Poor thing. ):
Miss her lots.
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As there's nothing much for me to do this few weekends, I went to watch some of the old drama series using my sis portable DVD player.
So, almost whole day I'm in my room.

I went to watch 戰神(mArs) again.
And I cried again. ):
There's some parts that are so touching that I can't control myself.
Watch till around 5.30am yesterday. =p
Still not finish with it though.

Sometimes I really hope I'm the main character in the story.
Or maybe I have a boyfriend that always protects me and be there whenever I need like 大鷹 (籃球火) or 陳零 (戰神).
They always find ways to protect their loved ones and do things that they like, as long as they're happy.

And sometimes love isn't what you get.
Maybe in the end you never get him/her.
But as long as she/he i happy, you'll be glad too.
That's what I love about 大鷹.
He's determination, love and braveness on 潔兒 is what I admire.

Maybe I'm just addicted to those dramas already.
It's just a show, a storyline that makes people feel touched and wanted to continue to watch the next episodes...
How can it be real?

Sigh ):

2008-12-08T16:29:00.004+08:00

Sometimes what you say don't seem that you mean it.
Words and people can lie.
Last time you used to be my most important person.
Now, you're not my anybody anymore.

The only photo that I kept with you.
There're still a lot with you, but I don't wanna get it back.

Looking forward for work tomorrow, though have to carry heavy stuffs again.
There's nothing for me to do now, making me to think a lot again.
Sigh...

Greedy Panda

2008-12-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Oh no.
I think my stomach will not feel so good tomorrow.
I 'forgot' that my stomach can't handle spicy food now and i still eat.
But I'm really hungry just now.
I can't resist it. >.<
Need to eat something, badly. ):

Now its... 2.45AM, going 3AM soon.
Suddenly a lot of things for me to do, do never notice its so 'early' already.
Gonna sleep soon cause body aches already. )):

HAHA.
Last week just watch finished 篮球火~
I LOVE 元大鹰!!!
LOVE his cuteness.
Really suite 罗志祥's character. ((:
Check it out, yo!

sleepy panda

2008-12-06T17:07:00.007+08:00

I just woke up at 4.30pm today.
Broke another record. =.=

Forgot to post some photos yesterday.
More decorations on the Christmas Tree. ((:

Sis duck duck.
she says looks like Gao Ling Feng in this pose.
LOL.
._.!!

2/?? of my desktop wallpaper that I will change everyday.

India pig on my sis table (inside joke :D )

Reindeer and 'log cake' (it's actually a whole roll of cotton wool) on Brian's table.

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I just finish chatting with Souless.
It's been AGES since i chat with him in MSN.
I like chatting with him cause i can just spill all my feelings out to him, though i not very close to him. Haha.
Then kept discussing about our past and all.
Then all the Kurabu members change I also don't know.
And he's in NS already. =.=
I really MIA for a very long time.
Everything changes.

Ok, nothing much to post. (:

Life at work...

2008-12-05T22:54:00.004+08:00

I've been working at IBM for 1 week.
So far, I've learned some new things and colleges.
They're really very nice and funny.
Laughing and joking at all times. (:

Nothing much for me to do.
Yesterday went to 'train my muscle' by carrying packages and recording the codes till today.
It's dusty, heavy and... dusty. )):
I'm drained out yesterday when I went for lunch.
Can't focus.
After eating, I'm full of energy again. :D
But my body was worn out.

I'm just starring at the laptop screen, surf internet and doing some orders Brian gave.
Everyday it's like 2-3 orders for me to do only, for the whole 9hours .__.
I'm still scared and unsure of doing orders till now.
Kept feeling that I left out something. ):
Of course I want to perform well and avoid any mistakes.

We've also decorated our mini Christmas tree. (:

With some glittering lights, snow...

cherries...

and a cute lil duck duck on the 'Merry Christmas' sign...

we have our own Christmas tree! ^^

with some fake presents below =x

I love-d you...

2008-12-05T01:11:00.005+08:00

Internet was down and I really wanted to post something so i used hand-written.
I don't care who read this actually, just want to write out my feelings.

If you really changed, prove it to me.
Prove it to me that you're worth waiting.
I'll just let things go.
I'm not sure whether we'll be together again.
I can't see our future now.
But, still want to tell you that I really loved you before, very much.

Just to let you know.
My sis said to me that
'If you belongs to me, in the future, you will still be mine.'

after we found out that you planned to secretly meet me.

You know what it means.
I won't force you to do anything.

It's your choice after all.

And I've made mine.

I NEED SLEEPING PILLS!!!!!

2008-11-22T03:44:00.000+08:00

Ya, can't sleep again. ._.
Not I wanted to...
I turned in at around 12.30AM, force my eyes to close, hide in blanket, roll on my bed many duper times till 1.30AM plus...
I can't stand it so I woke up, read some story books (hopefully I can sleep), and cook a bowl of noodles (i can forget about my weight for today) to fill my empty-ness.
NO USE!
My mind is going to explode man... ))))):
No wonder I've white hairs already.
I'm still young, okay? =.=
But I CAN'T SLEEP.
DAMN IT.
ARGH.

I'm blogging this in my mind just now. ._____________.
I don't know what's wrong with me already.
Mind is in a mess.
I'm like a corpse.
Sorry.

Still have to attend Ah Bing's birthday chalet @ SENTOSA ( =.= ) around evening time.
I think I'll sleep later and in the afternoon today since I got the 'become an owl' illness.

See what I've done just now...

Aww, man... i'm bored

2008-11-19T14:34:00.003+08:00

YESH. I'm really super bored now.
Nothing for me to do.

Gonna start work soon on December.
My first, for one month and I'm free...
I'm nervous. :C

I'm scared of interviews ._.

Sigh...
So busy this week.
Everything crashed on the same day. =.=

I've been turning in to bed around midnight 3-4plus for one week.
Getting headaches.
So I slept at 11plus yesterday. ^^
Maybe roll around my bed for 30mins then went to lala land.

Woke up with a bad BAD dream today.
GeeeeeeezzzZzZzzzz.....

My BHB photo.
I'm a panda, what do you expect? =p

2008 NV graduation high tea - photos (part 2)

2008-11-18T01:36:00.006+08:00

I'm back with more photos!
These are those that I've uploaded and in Gloria's blog.
Germaine, I'm still waiting for your photos. XP

FRIENDS:

Indrani.
- Taking photos with her is endless. :D

Maisarah.
- She looks like a model here. XDD

Siew Ting
- Eveyone said she dressed up like a bridesmaid. :D

Buddies

Zul. Jacob, Me, Siew Ting
- As i said I'll post one without Jacob running away. XD

Azam, Indrani, Siew Ting, Zhuo Heng, with me at the bottom

Siew Ting, Germaine, Sheryl, Li Ling and me at the bottom again.

Prestiage family.
Germaine and Me - her assistant, Sheryl and Indrani - her asssistant, Li Ling - Ah Gong

TEACHERS:

Mr Rashidin
- Taught me Chemistry

Mdm Nashita!
- My ham ham family mummy (:
Taught me english literature in Sec 1N1

Mrs Singh
- Taught me English

Mdm Lee
- Very skinny teacher >.<
Taught me Geography

Mrs Edison
- Taught me Social Studies

Taken from GLORIA~

Art students - Girls ((:
Not all of them =p

Another pose of Class photo. ^^

Personality Test

2008-11-17T22:32:00.003+08:00

Done this just now.
Though really a lot of questions to take but it's very accurate. :D
Saw this in YanLing's blog. =x

Today went 'rebond' my hair again cause the hairdresser do until my hair get very dry.
Then went back to Hougang to do for free.
I tell them to cut my hair abit shorter also.
Abit lesser than shoulder length.

Took this yesterday.
Bye bye, my hair. )):

Ah Bao's Wedding ((:

2008-11-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

Congrates to Ah Bao. ((:

Guess who is me? Haha.

Our table no. 69.

Sis, me, min*2.

Stupid photos took on the way to restaurant. Lol.

2008 NV graduation high tea - photos (part 1)

2008-11-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

Here are some photos my friends sent me or I found. ((:
I'm still waiting for myself to upload my photos in my phone and what Germaine took. ^^
Oh, Mr Chin also said that I looked like Strawberry Shortcake when we're taking photos. =.=

EVENTS:

Best dressed couples from Sec 4 and 5s. (:

Teachers singing Ying Xing De Chi Bang by Angela.

Very lame Star Wars character. (too bad never take photos with him)

FRIENDS:

Meng Yun and Me
- girlfriend that accompany me and Germaine to sing songs during lessons. =p

Asman and Me
- cute hamster (that's what me and Zhuo Heng called him) and DJ as he always play some music using his MP3 during recess (:

Zul, Jacob, Me and Siew Ting
- the 1N1s in 2005 :DDD (I have a clearer pic with me without Jacob running away)

Indrani and Me
- very close friend that jokes around with me and tickle each other ^^

Lastly,

my classmates (though not full house)
- giving me many memories for these 2 years

*will post more photos next time*

2008 NV graduation high tea - post

2008-11-13T20:02:00.003+08:00

Now, I still can't imagine I've graduate.
Today was fun and memorable. ((:
Everyone gets to wear pretty and handsome clothes, and enjoy our lunch with friends.
There were lucky draws and no prizes for me.
I've get the unlucky number, 153. ):

Teachers and friends also performed.
The food was OK, but I'm still hungry after eating it. =p
Took a lot of photos with friends and teachers (will post them next time)
and people were crowding all over the place to take pictures.
Too bad we never take with Mr Hafeez as he 'ran away'.

I'm very touched on what Mr Hafeez and Miss Chan wanted to tell us written on the slide shows.
I almost cried but thankfully, we're buzy taking photos and distracts my attention.

Indrani is going to Norway today during midnight and I'm unable to send her as she took 3AM plane.
I'm very sorry and I'll miss you, Indrani. (:
Thanks for accompanying, encouraging and fooling around with me these years.
I'm grateful to have you as my friend.
Take care and see you on late December or January.
Must come back, you promised me. ^^
(or else you know what your book will turn out to be)

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I'm waiting for people to post their blog for hours.
So far only seen 2. =.=
Now is 1.10AM.
I'm wasting my time.
Bye.

Os finally OVER!

2008-11-11T17:54:00.004+08:00

Today O lvl last paper!!
Finally O-V-E-R~~
Woots!

I've just rebonded my hair again.
This time can't follow Yang Cheng Ling's hairstyle cause my hair not suitable. >.<
Not satisfied cause I suffered a lot and my hairstyle is super normal not like last time "jellyfish" style. ))):

Suffered a lot cause the hair dresser "comb" my hair so hard that almost all my hair kana pull out. ):
In the end, I can't stand it and I told him to lighten his strength.
I wanted to tell him a long time ago but very paiseh.

They also asked me if I'm really decided to cut my hair cause it's very long when they straighten it.
At least I never cut till very short. Just shoulder length. (:

Actually I want to dye/highlight my hair today like the hair colour of Yang Cheng Ling but I decided not to. (or else my dad scold me =p )
I told my dad about this and he said " Black colour very nice, no need to dye."
LOL.
Next time (if possible), I want to curl bottom part of my hair. ^^

楊丞琳 - 帶我走MV

Yo!

2008-11-07T03:56:00.003+08:00

Helllloooo~ ((:
It's 4.30AM now and I'm still awake. *grin*
Not sleepy, still.
Now just surfing the net, find any dress to buy for graduation and cousin wedding.
Maybe tomorrow will go shopping with sis.
Hope to find a nicey dress. ^^

So far these two days after chinese exam I've been playing my PS2 game, Persona 3 again.
All day I've been staring at the TV screen straight from 1pm to 6pm. XD
Sometimes after dinner got free time also play.
WHOOHOO~
That's the way to enjoy life. =x
Still finding some computer games to play after last paper in case I get bored playing Persona. (:
Thinking of playing back o2Jam again but I'll get bored after awhile.
Can't level up. I'm still stuck at level 24. Damn it. >:(
Play until my fingers wanna fly off.
If not, I'll try to play an MMORPG game or something. (;

Don't worry.
I've not forgotten about the last paper on Tuesday.
I'll study on Sunday or Monday. XP

Hmmm. Too early le, gonna turn in to bed.
One piggy photo before posting. ^^

Night folks!

【星座】十二星座不能說的愛...

2008-11-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

As the results too long, I cut it short so that I can include all horoscopes in. ((:
Very accurate. ^^

白羊座——怕過期
　　秋刀魚會過期，肉罐頭會過期，連保鮮紙都會過期。在這個世界上，還有什麼東西是不會過期的？羊兒知道自己的風馳電掣，明白即使得到也只能曾經擁有，何必還去表白，不如擱在心里，最安全的地方。在那，可以藏著永遠都不會過期的愛情。

白羊座
　　白羊充滿著夢想，是不老的羅密歐與朱麗葉。愛得單純、熱烈，奔放而直接，只要心動了，便會毫不猶豫的衝上前去，追尋著那份不一樣的浪漫情緣。

　　經典語錄1：送心愛的人回家，哪都順路。
　　經典語錄2：海沒枯，石也沒爛，我的愛人，只要你高興，我會和它們一起統統改變過來。
　　
愛情保護傘:卡通可愛傘

　　羊兒舉傘的時候真心，就像彼此栓個戒指，恩愛永久；棄傘的時候也並非假意，事到如今，何必強求，先明哲保身才是上策。因此，外表的可愛，美好，不過假象，傘下的人確是快樂無憂的，然一朝雨打風吹了，恐怕最先逃之夭夭也是他們，只剩把破傘淒涼的訴說著光陰的故事，這或者，就是白羊座關於年輕最后的記憶。

金牛座——不相信
　　愛情是一種突然的產物，突然地要你相信一些你從前不能相信的事情，不管那是殘酷的最后還是溫情的心動。或許，牛牛這輩子就有一次懷疑精神，那就是懷疑這份愛情，當他強迫自己忽略，不去相信的時候，沒有人可以做什麼，回頭，已說不出口。

金牛座
　　金牛雖然內斂，但仍保有一種老式的浪漫情懷。與戀人緩緩對視、默默傳情，以無聲勝有聲才是牛兒頭腦中最美的境界。

　　經典語錄1：直到愛的味道悄然離去，我才豁然開朗，原來它，曾經來過我的心里。
　　經典語錄2：世界上最遠的距離不是天涯海角，而是我在你身邊，你卻不知道我愛你。

　　愛情保護傘: 專用裝飾傘

　　牛牛喜歡將愛情做得很美，然而，是否真相如此，去考究，多半會讓你失望。他們的身體里其實並沒有太多關於愛情的細胞，那種刻意，只是討好，他們往往把愛看得太重，卻苦於無法表達。專用裝飾傘，美則美矣，沒有靈魂，只是觀賞，遇到用處，便是傘也散了，心也散了罷。

雙子座——趕不上
　　雙子通常總是早熟的孩子，有早熟的心智，然而，卻沒有早熟的經曆。他們本來可以期許，可以擁有，但理智總是讓他們選擇等待，直到花落去，燕歸來，終於可以名正言順的去追求時。卻發現，不僅歲月經不起等待，那個人更經不起，終究是趕不上了。

雙子座
　　“心智的刺激”就是美麗的力量，雙子具有明顯的雙重性格，隨機應變，見風轉舵，化劣勢為優勢，他們最行。

　　經典語錄1：相信，是愛情最美的約定。想念的甜蜜，則讓愛情的濃度，隨時隨地。
　　經典語錄2：愛情是一件有限期的商品，別問我為何總更換著情人，我只是想找到最適合的愛人而已！

愛情保護傘: 輕盈花折傘——雙子座

　　雙子的愛情保護傘，不過是一個道具，你看那流暢的姿態，來來去去，瀟灑容易，喜歡的時候撐起來，享受傘外的風景，倦了，累了，便收納藏於盒中，一切似乎都沒有過。直到再遇上衷愛的人，衷愛的天氣，再撐起，點綴風景。折騰個一生一世，或者，直到傘骨斷裂，方才罷休，愛情，其實根本不用保護。

獅子座——要驕傲
　　獅子寧願留下一個優秀的形象在所愛的人心中，也不願意讓自己泛濫的矯情的傷感去牽絆對方，他們總是那樣驕傲。昂起高貴的頭，輕輕的從愛人身邊走過，即使心事已即將溢出，要窒息，也拼盡全力忍住。那一份沒說出口的愛，早在獅子心里，磨出了烙印。

獅子座
　　獅子的靈魂，永久都在渴求一種食物，那就是“讚美”。對這道迷湯，獅子百喝不厭，高興起來，即使是“玫瑰花床”獅子也會開心送你。

　　經典語錄1：不論陽光或是雨露，只要心中的彩虹依舊，生命也會變得熱烈澎湃起來。
　　經典語錄2：任憑你走過千山萬水、走過白天黑夜，我堅信，你永遠走不出我心中的那片原野。

　　愛情保護傘: 沙灘大篷傘

　　獅子座的熱情婦孺皆知，他們也喜歡表現自己的胸懷，連愛情也無法幸免，似乎裝下全世界，才是完美的戀情。於是，一把大篷傘成了愛情的保障，但，愛情其實需要不了如此的空間，偶爾多一些人是調劑，總是摻和著許多人，難免就有些擁擠，傘大，卻失去了保護的意義，那便是沒意義了。

處女座——多顧慮
　　處女座的愛伴隨著無窮盡的顧慮，無法忽略腦后，又等不及全都排除，直到記憶小舟擱淺，滄海一粟，曾經的大風大浪已成昨日黃花，或許那人仍不知道處女座在淒風苦雨中耗盡了多少心思。因為，處女座總平靜的，就像那段驚濤駭浪的愛情故事的主角，是其他人一樣。

處女座
　　並非表面上的含蓄、嚴肅，他們只是將心中的夢幻隱藏了而已。安安靜靜、平平實實，其實在他們心中，寧靜的竹林更甚於燈紅酒綠的風情。

　　經典語錄1：喝咖啡不要加糖，淡淡的苦才是它原來的味道。
　　經典語錄2：雖然愛情會褪色，就像老照片，不過我知道，你卻會在我的心中永遠美麗。

　　愛情保護傘: 透明落雨傘

　　處女座喜歡雪的並不多，它們太華貴，太易碎，無法觸及心頭的傷痕，熨燙眼淚。然而雨，處女座多半是喜歡的，因此透明傘成了愛情的保護，只為了什麼風景都不會落下。或者，愛情多些念思，感觸，本與美麗有關，少許憂愁划過罷了。只是風景有朝一日都看透了，那愛情還剩什麼？

魔羯座——苦現實
　　魔羯並不是最現實的星座，但卻是最容易接受和屈從現實的。他們一旦懂事，就會明白，世界不是愛情最重要，人們充塞著，互相制約。有許多事情比愛情重要，有許多愛情說了比不說要好。魔羯不懂的時候，愛的轟轟烈烈；懂了，卻愛的窩窩囊囊。

摩羯座
　　在這充滿快餐愛情的社會中，三思而后行的摩羯座著實顯得難能可貴。在摩羯眼里，情人節沒有獨光晚餐那又怎樣？不如存點以后的生活基金還比較實際點呢！

　　經典語錄1：如果我多一張船票，你會不會跟我一起走？
　　經典語錄2：感情碎了就是碎了，我寧願記住它最美的模樣，也不想修補之后，終生看著那破碎的地方。

　　愛情保護傘: 耐用純色傘

　　它或許昂貴，或許廉價，但無疑是單調。單一的顏色，規則的紋路，讓豔陽或雨天都會莫名沉悶。安全倒是有了，可這傘就像套子，慢慢的讓人只是覺得久在樊籠里，就想返自然。套子里的人早就被批駁過了，何必還要端著把傘來替代，若單為了穩定不移去做些什麼，愛情也就沒什麼勁了。

水瓶座——舍不得
　　對於有些人，瓶子始終是舍不得，舍不得因為男女之情跟他在一起。因為這個人，瓶子覺得跟他的相處應該是一輩子的事情，如果真的成為男女朋友，也許哪一日，感情褪色而分手。那樣，該多遺憾。於是，瓶子寧願永遠這樣默默的看著他，地老天荒，卻無聲也無言。

水瓶座
　　對於博愛而又知性的水瓶座來說，所有的關系都是從朋友開始的，不按牌理出牌的瓶子有著自己的邏輯，雖然偶爾讓人失望，但也經常會帶來驚喜。

　　經典語錄1：人生有很多巧合，就連兩條並行線，也會有交融的時候。
　　經典語錄2：親情是血液，愛情是空氣。只要心中的夏天還在，愛情就依然留在心底

　　愛情保護傘: 沒有保護傘

　　天生就是一個淋雨的人，濕透當作莫大快樂，一般來說，專心經營生活的人是不屑與他們為伍的，偶爾有些人湊熱鬧，也會顫抖后掉頭就跑，所以，他們的骨子里並非喜歡一個人行走，只是無奈罷了。關於愛情的結局，往往不是讓自己狼狽不堪，就是讓雙方都狼狽不堪后，在瓢潑大雨中一拍兩散。當然，總有陽光的日子，只可惜，雨總來的那麼快。

射手座——恨別離
　　很多時候，射手可以沒心沒肺的去追求，即使遭遇拒絕，也悲傷幾日，便精神飽滿從頭再來。但其實，射手並沒有旁人眼里那麼灑脫，如果恰逢一個時間，有些心緒漂泊，射手便不會再輕易言愛，恨別離，寧可他不知道，也無法允許出現他離開自己的可能。

射手座
　　熱愛冒險，尋求刺激，一段充滿挑戰的感情經曆才能讓射手們打起精神來。越有難度，越覺得刺激，一不小心就讓愛火失去控制，只好一鼓作氣的追求到底。

　　經典語錄1：愛，不要成為囚。不要為了愜意，便取締了我的自由……
　　經典語錄2：原來能為自己所愛的人吃苦，竟也是一種快樂，只是世上有幾人能享受到這種快樂

　　愛情保護傘: 個性風潮傘

　　射手對長久的東西向來沒興趣，愛情保護傘也不例外，且不說遭遇不測風雲的天氣，單說風潮，年年歲歲不相似，到時是將傘變了，被保護的愛情暴晒或淋漓於街頭，還是幹脆連愛情也換了。生活是秀，愛情是秀，作為大街人眼中的風景線，茶前飯后談資閑話，其實也沒有什麼，只要那把特立獨行的傘不是遮羞布就行了。

天蠍座——沒勇氣
　　感情有時就像一條皮筋，一條被時間拉扯的皮筋。許多日子過去，足夠它被拉的長長的，繃得緊緊的了。只要稍有觸動就會有強烈的振動，而每次振動，都可能成為他致命的傷害。因此，每一段愛情，時間拖得越久，蠍子便越沒有勇氣去招惹了。

天蠍座
　　蠍子可以是聖人，也可以是罪人，強烈的欲望在他們的心中翻騰。只有在激情和淚水中，天蠍才能感到自己的存在和歡樂，往往一念之間，便決定了聖潔與沉淪。

　　經典語錄1：成熟不是心變老，是淚在打轉，卻依然還能微笑。
　　經典語錄2：愛情的美酒，我只有一杯，既然給了別人，我又怎麼忍心再來騙你。

愛情保護傘: 情侶二人傘

　　蠍子獨立嗎，他們總是裝著獨立，事實上，一旦有了愛情，他們的傘總是為兩個人撐著，再也沒有獨身的概念。因此，蠍子越愛越累，由此可見。情侶二人傘，兩個人的時候必定還是好用的，可在一起並不是連體嬰兒，分開的時候，就覺得累贅了。保護愛情，也別衍生出太多負擔。

天秤座——寧相忘
　　天秤座愛上了一個人，以深刻的方式，那麼他們寧可在一次美妙的擦肩而過后，徹底忘了這個人。免得日后，女的一手牽著孩子一手拎著菜籃，眼袋浮腫頭發凌亂，憔悴難看，男的明顯發福頂著啤酒肚還略微禿頂，非但沒留住愛情，連一個刹那都無力挽回。

天秤座
天秤喜歡和諧，喜歡人群，終生都在追求著心的歸屬，只為了能有一個永遠的避風港，讓自己在受傷的時候可以靜靜的休養生息。

經典語錄1：如果感情的重量也能秤量，那麼我也會比較受歡迎了吧！
　　經典語錄2：愛情，是留給懂得愛自己的人。那里不是單行道，愛有多少，付出就要有多少。

愛情保護傘:　複古貴族傘

　　作為天秤愛情的保護傘很難，那些優雅的細節，邊邊角角，無一不散發著美好瞬間，也同時會將現實的俗態衝擊得一塌糊塗。在古典韻律的貴族傘下，人可以偶爾穿越時空的愛戀，但要是黃鶴一去不複返，相信也沒幾個人是真心想去的。拿古代的浪漫去維系當今，貴族的情調來影響平民，雖然上了格調，可總讓人吃不消。

巨蟹座——膽小鬼
　　他會愛，但不會說；說出來的，可能並不是最愛的。巨蟹是個膽小鬼，對任何事情不喜歡期望值太高，只因為怕會失望的。因此他們只能自顧自淺斟低唱，也曾傷心流淚，也曾黯然心碎，這是愛的代價。然而，他愛的那個人到底是誰，別人都不知道。

巨蟹座
　　不可否認，“愛家”與害羞、愛鬧，像孩子般可愛的巨蟹有著不解之緣。時而靦腆內斂，時而手舞足蹈，其實巨蟹只是想將愛人“鉗”在懷中而已。

　　經典語錄1：愛一個人就是在寒冷的夜里不斷在他杯子里斟上剛沸的熱水。
　　經典語錄2：我是棋盤，你是棋子，我們在一起就是一盤永遠也下不完的棋。

　　愛情保護傘: 傳統油紙傘——巨蟹座

　　巨蟹座的愛情古典，婉轉，幻想著遙遠的風韻。也許，愛情是沒有古典與現代之分，當它降臨時，即使是一個眼神，一次揮手，瞬間的震撼，都會將原本陌生的兩個靈魂拉近了距離。只可惜，關於愛情的維護，是有著難以逾越的差距，金錢的衝擊，世俗的期盼，你還指望雙方能躲在一把細雨之中的油紙傘內，你儂我儂一輩子嗎？

【心理測驗】你和什麼人最配~

2008-11-03T23:48:00.003+08:00

Woah.
Mine is D,和責任感強的愛家一族最速配.
Quite accurate for me. =x
Haha. ^^

1.你會想和那一種異性約會
A.看起來老實又內向的 --> 2
B.會玩又會懂得打扮的 --> 3

2.有個人邊看表邊跑，他遲到了5分鐘，你覺得他心理怎麼想
A.才5分不算遲到 --> 4
B.糟了﹗遲到了﹗ --> 5

3.有個家庭主婦正在打掃，你覺得她正在怎麼想
A.我要掃得一塵不染 --> 6
B.差不多就行了，做完可以去看小說 --> 4

4.有個女生從你身旁經過，飄來一陣很香的味道，你覺得是哪一種香味
A.甜甜的果香 --> 7
B.清淡的花香 --> 9

5.你和朋友一起去吃飯，付了錢走出餐廳才發現店員少找你10元，這時你會
A.折回去向他要回來 --> 9
B.才10元就算了 --> 8

6.有一只鳥從鳥籠飛走了，你覺得
A.這只鳥一定會再回來 --> 7
B.不會回來了 --> 10

7.看到有人順手把垃圾丟在路上，你有什麼感想
A.不能原諒這種人 --> 12
B.沒什麼感覺 --> 10

8.朋友到你家作客，你喜歡收到哪一種禮物
A.鮮花或裝飾品 --> 16
B.蛋糕或食物 --> 11

9.你在半夜邊看書邊窩在棉被中想事情，後來
A.多半會睡著 --> 12
B.會越來越清醒 --> 8

10.你現下正在逃命，你認為是什麼東西在追你呢
A.獅子或老虎 --> 13
B.酷斯拉 --> 14

11.你看到地面上有洞時你會怎麼想
A.洞裡有什麼東西？ --> 15
B.太危險了，還是趕快蓋起來吧﹗ --> A

12.書架上的書倒了，看起來亂七八糟，這時你會馬上整理嗎
A.是 --> 16
B.否 --> 13

13.有個人正對另一個人說悄巧話，你認為他聽了之後的回應是
A.忍不住大笑出來 --> 17
B.皺起眉頭一臉沉重 --> 18

14.有個女子拿刀對著一名男子，這女子會對他說什麼
A.我恨你，所以我要殺了你 --> 18
B.再過來我要刺過去了 --> D

15.你想謀職，下面2家公司你會選那一家
A.能讓人成長公司 --> D
B.穩定的公司 --> B

16.朋友請吃晚餐，你已經很飽了，他卻一直勸你吃甜點，這時你會
A.再飽也會吃 --> 17
B.很果斷的拒絕 --> 15

17.買新電器時，關於說明書，你會
A.使用前一定先看仔細 --> C
B.根本很少會看 --> B

18.下面那一種人令你無法忍受
A.小氣又囉嗦的人 --> D
B.做事隨便的人 --> C

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A.和活潑的健康寶寶最速配
你在愛情的表現上顯得相當笨拙，只要在心儀的人面前就會故意裝出一副很強悍的樣子，這樣喜歡逞強的你，正需要一個比你強悍、可靠的伴侶。最好是那種有一點粗魯、但身體非常健康、性格開朗、體力超好，不會弱不禁風的那一型，最適合你不過。

B.和有氣質的文藝青年最速配
你最重視的就是兩人的性趣和感覺合不合。你比較欣賞重視自己的工作、擁有自己一片天地的異性，希望他對不管是文學、或是藝術，甚至音樂都抱持有高度敏感性，你喜歡兩個人可以一起去欣賞電影，或是聽聽演唱會，享受優閑知性的時光。要找你的另一半，過福祉的婚姻生活的話，當然是非這種人莫屬。

C.和相敬如賓的人最速配
你是一個很容易一頭栽進興趣之中的人，這樣的你需要一個可以尊重你的興趣和工作、百分之百支持你的伴侶。你不喜歡兩個人老是天天膩在一起，希望彼此能保有適當的距離，所以擁有一身專業技術和知識，抱持著就算是兩個人在一起也可以彼此擁有自己的空間的異性，是你的最佳人選。

D.和責任感強的愛家一族最速配
認真和意志堅定的人是你的最佳人選。如果你要結婚，那種對家庭和工作具有強烈的責任感，在公司也很受到上司信賴的人是你的第一選擇。在婚前你可能還會很堅持地什麼男女平等、提出種種你的原則，一旦結婚之後，你就會為了對方和家庭去做任何的事情。

【心理測驗】你是怎樣的人？

2008-11-03T23:42:00.001+08:00

Just took a quiz from Luo Zhi Xiang's forum.
Very accurate~
Mine is Ｃ型. =p
What's yours? (:

問題一：你認為你是一個有個性，有自己的思想及主見的人嗎？
　　　　　是（請回答問題二）
　　　　　否（請回答問題八）

問題二：你較喜歡星形還是心形的項鍊呢？
　　　　　星形（請回答問題三）
　　　　　心形（請回答問題九）

問題三：你喜歡玩洋娃娃或機械人嗎？
　　　　　喜歡（請回答問題十一）
　　　　　不喜歡（請回答問題四）

問題四：你對中國的傳統服式有興趣嗎？
　　　　　有興趣（請回答問題十一）
　　　　　沒有太大興趣（請回答問題五）

問題五：你的衣櫃裡有紅色的衣服嗎？
　　　　　有（請回答問題六）
　　　　　沒有（請回答問題十二）

問題六：你願意申請一份需要工作經驗的職位嗎？
　　　　　願意（請回答問題七）
　　　　　不願意（請回答問題十三）

問題七：你受到朋友的歡迎，是否因為你是一個可靠的人呢？
　　　　　是（你屬於Ａ型）
　　　　　否（你屬於Ｂ型）

問題八：你是短頭髮的嗎？
　　　　　是（請回答問題二）
　　　　　否（請回答問題十五）

問題九：你是否覺得你的膚色不夠白皙呢？
　　　　　是（請回答問題三）
　　　　　否（請回答問題十六）

問題十：請從下列兩種花中選擇你較喜歡的一種。
　　　　　向日葵（請回答問題十四）
　　　　　野菊花（請回答問題十一）

問題十一：你是否一個有責任心的學生或職員呢？
　　　　　　是（請回答問題五）
　　　　　　否（請回答問題十七）

問題十二：你最近對手工藝有興趣嗎？
　　　　　　有興趣（請回答問題十八）
　　　　　　沒有興趣（請回答問題六）

問題十三：你認為你是一個親切友善的人嗎？
　　　　　　是（請回答問題七）
　　　　　　否（請回答問題十九）

問題十四：你介意與一群異性朋友睡在相同的一張床嗎？
　　　　　　介意（請回答問題二十）
　　　　　　不介意（你屬於Ａ型）

問題十五：運動是否你主要的業／課餘活動呢？
　　　　　　是（請回答問題九）
　　　　　　否（請回答問題二十一）

問題十六：你對理科有興趣嗎？
　　　　　　有興趣（請回答問題十）
　　　　　　沒有興趣（請回答問題二十二）

問題十七：請從下列兩種顏色中選擇你較喜歡的一種。
　　　　　　橙／橘色（請回答問題十二）
　　　　　　紅色（請回答問題二十四）

問題十八：你較喜歡山還是海洋呢？
　　　　　　山（請回答問題十三）
　　　　　　海洋（請回答問題二十五）

問題十九：你會妒忌比你出色的人嗎？
　　　　　　會（請回答問題十四）
　　　　　　不會（請回答問題二十六）

問題二十：你介意在公眾場所大笑或大聲談話嗎？
　　　　　　介意（你屬於Ｃ型）
　　　　　　不介意（你屬於Ｂ型）

問題二十一：你會經常收拾你的房間嗎？
　　　　　　　會（請回答問題十六）
　　　　　　　不會（請回答問題二十八）

問題二十二：你喜歡看電視的體育節目嗎？
　　　　　　　喜歡（請回答問題二十三）
　　　　　　　不喜歡（請回答問題二十九）

問題二十三：你認為純友誼關係能夠在異性朋友在之間存在嗎？
　　　　　　　能夠（請回答問題十七）
　　　　　　　不能夠（請回答問題十）

問題二十四：你想學習烹飪嗎？
　　　　　　　想（請回答問題十八）
　　　　　　　不想（請回答問題三十一）

問題二十五：你對互聯網絡（Internet）有興趣嗎？
　　　　　　　有興趣（請回答問題十九）
　　　　　　　沒有太大興趣（請回答問題三十二）

問題二十六：你較喜歡下列哪一種性格的人呢？
　　　　　　　運動型（請回答問題二十）
　　　　　　　成熟型（請回答問題三十九）

問題二十七：你喜歡穿著及炫耀名牌時裝嗎？
　　　　　　　喜歡（你屬於Ｂ型）
　　　　　　　不喜歡（你屬於Ｄ型）

問題二十八：你較喜歡狗還是貓呢？
　　　　　　　狗（請回答問題二十二）
　　　　　　　貓（請回答問題三十四）

問題二十九：你通常會攜帶香水出門嗎？
　　　　　　　會（請回答問題三十）
　　　　　　　不會（請回答問題三十五）

問題三十：你較喜歡太陽還是月亮呢？
　　　　　　月亮（請回答問題二十三）
　　　　　　太陽（請回答問題二十四）

問題三十一：你經常改變你的髮型嗎？
　　　　　　　是（請回答問題二十五）
　　　　　　　否（請回答問題三十七）

問題三十二：服務其他人令你覺得很忙碌嗎？
　　　　　　　是（請回答問題二十六）
　　　　　　　否（請回答問題三十八）

問題三十三：你通常保持整齊的頭髮嗎？
　　　　　　　是（請回答問題二十七）
　　　　　　　否（你屬於Ｃ型）

問題三十四：你有烹飪恐懼症嗎?
　　　　　　　有（請回答問題二十九）
　　　　　　　沒有（請回答問題三十五）

問題三十五：你是否擁有很多裝飾品呢？
　　　　　　　是（請回答問題三十六）
　　　　　　　否（請回答問題三十七）

問題三十六：你喜歡在假期或節日期間購物嗎？
　　　　　　　喜歡（請回答問題三十七）
　　　　　　　不喜歡（請回答問題三十一）

問題三十七：將來你希望製造雕像嗎？
　　　　　　　希望（請回答問題三十二）
　　　　　　　不希望（請回答問題三十八）

問題三十八：你十分挑剔你內衣褲的款式嗎？
　　　　　　　是（請回答問題四十）
　　　　　　　否（請回答問題三十九）

問題三十九：你對製造手工藝有興趣嗎？
　　　　　　　有興趣（請回答問題三十三）
　　　　　　　沒有興趣（請回答問題二十七）

問題四十：你是否一個追隨時裝潮流的人呢？
　　　　　　是（你屬於Ｃ型）
　　　　　　否（你屬於Ｄ型）

＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝

〔解析〕

★Ａ型：

　　你是一個外向和樂觀的人。雖然你也有挫折失敗的時侯，但開朗的你很快便會振作起來。異性朋友很喜歡你親切且友善的性格，但也同時令你的配偶失去安全感。不懂表達感情是你的缺點，但寬容、大量及慷慨是你受歡迎的原因。同性朋友很難了解你，因為你性格天真單純，但這正是你吸引異性的有利條件呢！

★Ｂ型：

　　你關懷照料的性格總是令朋友們覺得你是他們的大哥哥／大姐姐。朋友們都很信任你；他們覺得與你聊天很舒服並且是一種樂趣。通常一些年紀比你小而且感情脆弱的異性都會受你吸引。

★Ｃ型：

　　你是一個依賴及欠缺主見的人，因此異性朋友總是覺得你是他們的小弟弟／小妺妺。在四個類型之中，你是最適合結婚的一類。你能成功地佔據配偶空閒的時間；你總希望你是眾人的集中點。楚楚可憐是你給異性的印象，因此朋友們都熱心地保護及照顧你。穿著清潔整齊的衣服能令你更加受歡迎。

★Ｄ型：

　　在四個類型之中，你是最性感的一類。嫵媚迷人的你很受朋友們的歡迎而且更是眾人的集中點呢！可是，朋友們往往只是寵愛你的外貌；忠告你不要過份信任異性的甜言蜜語！另外，希望你能夠多些表現你的智慧及主見，這樣你便能成為一個外在及內在美兼備的人！

I'm FREEEEE~~~~

2008-11-03T16:57:00.003+08:00

Yeah! :D
I feel like in heaven now.
Today had my Social Studies o lvl.
I've been slacking and never studied much on SS. =x
I'm so lucky to have the topic on conflict between Iraq-Kuwait cause that's the only topic I've studied.
*smile*

So far, still left with Chinese and Science MCQs.
I felt super relax now already.

I'm still troubled about what to wear on graduation high tea.
Damn it. ):

Good luck everyone.

安靜了MV - S.H.E

Food Gourmet - 1

2008-10-12T22:10:00.007+08:00

Love to eat?
Wanna try something nice and delicious?
I’m here to talk about it ~!
Actually, I just wanted to post something that I bought and ate just now.

Goldfish colours – cheddar flavor.
It’s quite nice when you eat a few of them.
After that, I’ll get quite ‘bored’ eating it.
Don’t know how to say. =p
But I love the colours~ ((:

There's something for you to draw at the back of the package also.

And I drew this. ^^

Next, a simple appetizer/dessert, Creamy sweet corn soup!!!
Inside there’s some cabbage, green veggies, carrots and corn.
It taste heavenly I tell you.
I can simply eat another 10 plus cups!
Just pour the ingredients in, add hot water, and wait for 3 minutes…
Ta Daaa~ It’s done!
After you eat it, you can just say “One more! One more!” (:

Eating i action. =P

Start -> End

(p.s: yes, I lied that I won't be blogging till "o" lvl is over)

'O' levels are coming~

2008-10-09T00:04:00.003+08:00

I've not updated my blog for a long time.

Been buzy staying back, sleeping and studying for Os.

I'm tired.

Actually till now, I've felt not much stress.

Maybe because my family didn't want much from me.

I also just want an average grade will do.

But, still hope for the best. (:

8 more days to SCIENCE PRACTICAL.

10 more days to FIRST PAPER!!

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE~

(p.s: will not be updating for the next one month or so...)

A scary picture to end my post for the next month++ . =p

Let's get wacky~! ^^

2008-09-15T21:20:00.010+08:00

I'm not going to write much today.
These photos tells everything. :DD
I love distorting myself. =p
We took over 100 plus photos and these are the most hilarious ones.
Laugh hard.
(p.s: we took all these using our art lessons since we had done our coursework and mr ng was not there to monitor us. We became a bunch of crazy people taking photos using the iMAC.)

indrani and me in class. ((:

At art lab.

I like this. We seems like the S.W.A.T team or something. =p

BEGINNING OF OUR WEIRDNESS.

Er ge's bdae

2008-09-13T22:19:00.001+08:00

Went our to AMK hub to eat fish and Co. to celebrate my second bro's bdae with cousins and family.
We, as well as the Fish and Co. waitress, gave him a surprise. :D
Here's the photos.

Evidence #10092 : A sis that bullies me. XD

Eating...

Birthday Boy.

Birthday Pressies :DD

2008-09-04T01:51:00.003+08:00

Thanks again for all the pressies from friends and family. ((: Seems like I never received so much gifts for quite a long time.

LOL.
There's more but most of them I ate them up. =p
I can't resist sweets you know. =x

Yay. A panda collection from precious moments - debbi.
And I still have a panda printed dress from sis. (:

Today went for physics remedial lessons.
Miss Chan taught us a year lessons in one day. 8 chapters straight, without any electricity. Means that we have no air-con and lights. (p.s: heard that our school forgot to pay...)
After a few false alarm, we finally get our electricity back.
We got to see some live performance by the late comers after the lunch break as well.
Miss Chan told them to do pole dance.

Pardon me for my lousy video cause my handphone is a low pix camera. =.=
Since no one have posted, I have no other videos to grab.
The light kept flashing is not because the school ran out of electricity again.
We're giving them a 'disco' kinda feel.

Desmond and Jun Xun
(note: the 'quack' sound mostly came from Jasveer. So obvious. XD )

Kenneth, Wilson and Zheng Yi

_ _ __ __ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ __ __ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ __ __ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Are you sleeping,
are you sleeping,
no I'm not. lalala.

Morning people.
Its 3.30am now and I've not sleep yet.
I was surfing the net and watching some MVs..
I think I'll forget about going to art early in the morning.
Afternoon then go. =p

I kept finding things to do to distract myself, at the wrong timing.

Hmm. one last video.
I think I watch this movie, once.
Long long agooo.

Aerosmith - I Dont Want To Miss A Thing (Armageddon scenes)

ok...
Time for bed.

Carry on...

2008-09-01T21:07:00.004+08:00

Everyone will learn how to walk someday and will have the experience of falling.
There's some people who can learn faster and more techniques then we do.
And of course, there're some who just expecting or learning too much than they should.
Thus, they tend to give up those which they can't succeed.

Everyone had given up on something once.
And some even have walk on the wrong path of your life, making mistakes.
Some may overcome them and go on but some will just stop and wait for someone to lend a helping hand for them to carry on...
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Here I am.
Listening to songs and telling myself to relax a little.
It helps a lot when I sings aloud with it.
I may cry even worse but at least I release all my feelings and thoughts out.

Now is 1.40am, going 2am soon.
Tomorrow I still need to go for Geography CRT from 9am to 11am.
Maybe after that I'll go back home to eat and back to school again to do my art, since I don't have photoshop to do my background.

Sigh.
It's been a long and hard day.
Tomorrow will be boring.
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The Click Five - Mary Jane
I didn't cry the day you moved away
I didn't think that I could feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you

Whatever happened to our innocence
and the somethin' that you said about being friends
tell me how
help me say the words out loud

could it be
that nothings gonna change
cause time has got a way of taking back
everything you thought you had
can you see
the girl you used to be
the one I lost when I let go of you
oh whatever happened to
mary jane

I need to wake up from this state of mind
the situation is the same kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head

would you catch me if I had to fall
would you even find the time for that at all
tell me how
help me say the words out loud

cause time has taken back
everything I thought we had
Mary Jane..

___________________________________________________________________

丁噹 - 猜不透MV

Happy Birthday

2008-08-29T21:03:00.002+08:00

Finally I can watch NC 16 movies. =.=
Just a simple post today.
Thanks for the wishes from:
Shi Ping
Shu Xian
Meng Yun
Germaine
Li Ling
Indrani
Siew Ting
Elmo
Penguin
and many I forgot. (tend to get older and memory lost you see)

And a big thanks from family for celebrating my birthday with me.
It's been so long since I get a surprise. :D
Thanks for the gifts also. ((:

Oh ya, the teacher's day celebration.
We imitate this video's concept but didn't do quite well.
AND THEY CUT THE VIOLENCE PART!
(where we throw the tables, chairs and newspaper running around pointing our 'guns')

Edward Cullen...

2008-08-23T16:31:00.002+08:00

After reading the first book of Twilight series that Sheryl, Indrani and Gloria fancy about, I really felt joining the so call "EFC (Edward Fan Club)".
But I'm not as crazy as Indrani and Gloria, whom scared that I'll snatch Edward from them.
They claimed him as "their's".
Just that sometimes I wish I'm his girlfriend. =.=
And you can see them forming into a group and read the book together and kept shouting he's name. HAHA.

Though he's just a character in the story, the author describe him... perfectly.
He's very cool and sweet.
Always trying his best to protect his girlfriend, Bella, at any cost.
There're some scenes that are super romantic. >.<
It makes you wanna continue reading.

The movie is coming out soon on December.
Gonna watch with them since our 'o' level is over by that time.
Hope they won't shout whenever Edward appear on the movie screen. =x

Trailer 1

Dead

2008-08-22T20:55:00.000+08:00

And I'm dead.
...
....
.....
......
.......

Who... am I?
Why am I crying?
Who am I crying for?

I don't like to cry.
I hate it.
But I can't control it.
Whenever I have nothing to, it controls me.

I can't find myelf.

I'm not a dumb person where you can fool me around.
I'm not patience as every one thinks I am.
I gets irritated easily.

And speaking of this, I wana say sorry to my mum as I've always talk to her rudely everytime I went back home.

I've had a concept I'll treat you back on the way you treat me to let you feel how I felt.

There're always things for me to worry about.

Study, is one of the things I've always worried for.
Prelim results were out and Mr Hafeez had called my sis.
Even he worried for me.
Guess what? I'm really useless.

Today I've gone to school to do my art.
I starred at the iMAC straight from 10AM to 5PM.
After so MANY months and staying back after school till 6, I've finally done 3 dress.
Still have to edit some and do the background.
Sometimes I wonder, what in the world will happen to me if I fail my art.

I didn't have any feeling for my birthday next week.
Nothing.

I'll always stand there and do nothing until someone come and help me.
Why am I so useless.

..............

Silly me =p

2008-08-03T18:50:00.000+08:00

Today when I woke up, my first reaction when I opened my eyes was "OMG".
I saw the sun shine brightly and find what time is it.
"9.30AM~! I'm late for school... AGAIN."
Then after a few minutes of shock, I forgot today is SUNDAY.
How blur can I get? =.=
But glad that I'd realised before I've rush out of bed or something.

After I woke up, I found another interesting PS2 game again. (since my bro bought a lot and I never tried all of them)
Persona 3 : SHIN MEGAMI TENSEI
I like to play this kinda game.
Half RPG, half Action.
And you transform by pointing a gun on your head and blow your brain out.
WAHAHAHA.
Too bad you need to worry everytime as it's rare to see a saving point.

Well, I'm planning to study e maths the whole day today.
Guess I've to do it only tonight. =p

Off to eat dinner. (:
______________________________________________________________
Sweetheart muuarcks herself. ((:

I love sweeeeetttsss~~~~

Fatty piggy. 0.0

SUPER SWEETHEART.

Like a squirrel eh?

Letters...

2008-08-01T17:35:00.001+08:00

I love the feeling of receiving letters for myself every time I open the mailbox.
Not bills and advertisement but something from my friends.

I remember once I’ve been sending letter to Shi Ping to and fro.
Then we stopped after awhile.

Now, I feel very nice recapping and looking at the letters and birthday wishes wrote during my Primary and Secondary school times.
The things wrote in the letters were very childish but it makes me happy reading them.
And I’m glad that I kept all the letters till now. ((:

Birthday wishes

2008-07-28T17:47:00.004+08:00

As my birthday coming soon, Andy said that he’s going to buy a lolita for me or even tailor made one loli for me. =.=
Just because I share money with Germaine they all to buy present for him, he got this sort of responsibility to repay us back.

Eh, I actually wanted to accept that but after thinking for so looonnngg, it’s better not.
I can’t allow taking such an expensive thing as my present and he’s just a friend to me.
Accept his offer is like carrying a huge burden and wasting his money (though he doesn’t care about it).

Maybe because watch Mr Luo Zhi Xiang wears too much checkered clothings, I love them also.

Especially this kind. Aww, love it so much. ((:

Cause I'll sell my lolita next time as I'm not sure whether I have so much money to spent or not (since I have to many hobbies to catch up with), it's better not to buy too much.

And my birthday that day, I need to hand up my art coursework. )):

bah

2008-07-27T03:55:00.000+08:00

Well, it's 4am now.
Yes, I'm still awake.
but have a headache now so it's a sign for me to sleep.
update more when i wake up. (if possible)

Life is like playing monopoly

2008-07-24T21:05:00.004+08:00

Went to school today again for social studies test.
I did not do finish the whole paper.
I was rushing and writing at the fastest speed I can manage.
And when I looked around, everybody was rushing just like me. XD
LOL.
(I don't really know what's so funny about that.)

Prelim had started since last week.
So far, I’m not very satisfied with all the revision I've done. ):

Hmm.
Let’s talk about other stuffs.

Have you experience seeing some kind of patchy black things in the dark? Especially after looking at your handphone screen or something bright?
I don’t know how to explain it though.
Maybe there’s something wrong with my eyes.
Everytime I went to sleep, I can’t really see the things around me.
There’s these black patches covering my vision.
Urgh.

By the way, I just saw Jeant helped us scanned our class photos.
Enjoy. :D
And I’m WHITE. 0.0
Or should I say everyone was being BLEACHED.

Formal photos:
We have three teachers. Hurrah~

Be warned.
Ken is going to pick up a fight again. (look at his eyebrow)

The zoom-in thing, which will make your head super big:
Mr Hafeez is having a great time there yeah?
And as what Jeant said, there seemed to be some tangles in front. HAHA.

Informal:
I felt that Jasveer looks even more like Mr Bean in this photo. HAHAHA.

That's all. ((:

曹格 Welcome to my world concert video + photos

2008-07-15T18:29:00.006+08:00

Went to search for the concert photos and videos GFC and other people took.
Enjoy. ((:

He started off with "Superwoman".

He introduced to us his best friend, 小黑.
They performed the songs they wrote together unplugged.

I loved his chair. LOL.
Sang "无辜", "单数" and "背叛"

Cosplaying 李小龙.
Behind are some bad guys. LOL.

After that fighting scene, he saved the princess (actually she just walked out on her own out of the cage)

First guest, 易杰齐.

Second guest, 卓文宣.

Singing "My Way" and some jazz songs.

Saw 杨宗伟 when he use his viewcam to zoom his face.

Encore: 世界唯一的你
When he took off his clothes in the end. =p

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曹格 Welcome to my world concert - 背叛

曹格 Welcome to my world concert - 世界唯一的你 (encore)

me to my world concert - 无辜

曹格 Welcome to my world concert!!

2008-07-13T01:10:00.006+08:00

It's super nice I tell you. LOL.
Honestly, it's abit better than 罗志祥's concert in overall.
The lightings and stage props are better.
It's short but seemed so long (as he sang a lot of songs).
I think 罗志祥's concert ended too fast with the blink of an eye but you will get very high.
曹格's ended at around 11pm while 罗志祥's concert is around 10.30pm or earlier.

There’s a part whereby he sang all those songs like 无辜, 单数 and 背叛 in a row.
He's like making me teary. ):
And he's voice is really powerful and incomparable.
Though he didn’t dance a lot but he’s voice can cover them up.

Too bad I didn’t buy the front row tickets as the stage had an extension path to the crowd.
Very surprised that 杨兄 (杨宗伟) was there also cause at first 曹格 was kidding that he came.
Now I really believed that 曹格 was also damn cute and funny.
He kept telling himself to keep away his anxiousness by saying “bo kia” (don’t be afraid in hokkien) and he kept pronounced it off tune. LOL.

Oh, he take off his clothes in the end.
HAHA.

Overall, it's worth to watch it. (:
Will upload photos soon.

Hi, Alysha (:

2008-07-11T14:55:00.000+08:00

Yes, Alysha is out to see this world.
I'm becoming older. NO~ ):
Went to visit sis and she doesn't seem tired at all. Lol.
Maybe too over excited.

RANDOM, so random.

2008-06-28T10:41:00.006+08:00

Woke up at 6.20am today for my Physics consultation with Miss Chan.
Meet Germaine and Sheryl at Mac for breakfast and then Li Ling came when we reach school.
Ended at 9.30am and I went home to rest.

Later will be going accompany sis to scan her baby again.
I'm not waiting to come back to post as it'll be late.

Lastly, photos for yesterday's farewell party.
It was really fun!
I finally get to know what our class is like. (:

our pizza. :D

and there it goes after we finished.

Jasveer looks like a monster. 0.0

Randomness.

Say hi to Azam.

Well what can I say...
The following content contains hard gay acts, enjoy.

Girls group photo.
Spot the mistake.

See how the boys made Mrs Eng so happy.

Some formal class photos.

And violence again.

TADAAAA~ thanks for the photos, JEANTTTTTT!

Thanks Mrs Eng ((:

2008-06-27T13:11:00.002+08:00

Today everyone seemed to have finished their 'O' levels and felt so relax.

Mrs Eng left school today for her one year leave. (That’s why Mr Hafeez became our form teacher)
We planned a farewell party for her during recess, after the tiring PE lessons where we ran for 4 rounds from first to forth floor with some conditioning exercise and 2 rounds inside school.
We took our height and weight after that.
I’m still short but my weight hasn’t change since I ate so many tidbits during June holidays.
Luckily I slept enough (from around 7.30pm till the morning when I woke up at 6.30am) for all these exercises.
So we took class photos (will post soon) and ate pizza.
Of course we’ll miss her as she had been a great teacher to us.

When school releases, I saw Mrs Eng waiting to cross the road.
I chatted with her for a while since we walked the same way back.
I’ll remember the way she teaches us during CDP and Physic lessons.
Maybe I will go visit her or tuition at her house when she is free. (since she agreed)

Talking about yesterday, I dreamt of Polar again.
This time it’s a nightmare.
I dreamt of how he passed away and even waved good-bye to me.
I woke up with my eyes full of tears.Hope he’s doing fine up there.

Another lolita.

2008-06-24T22:53:00.004+08:00

I've just bought another lolita online from Bodyline.
Quite nice, since my sis and friends agreed.
Here's a picture of it.

Though the pink version is nicer but since I had a pink dress, I'll go with a blue one.
Next will be gothic or something way different from sweet lolita after selling either one of them.

Hmm. School had started since yesterday and I must say I'd quite eager to go school on Monday.
When I woke up in the morning, I felt energetic and seems to be very high and talkative in school.
Oh ya, Mr Hafeez is our form teacher now.
Hurrah. =.=

I'd asked Mr Ng how much will I score for my art coursework today during lesson time.
"If there's chance, highest an A2."
That's what he said.
Alright, I'll work hard for my goal. (:

Kamikaze Girls movie

2008-06-21T22:29:00.004+08:00

Went to The Cathay to watch the movie, Kamikaze Girls.
I can't say it's completly nice as I get abit bored at some scenes.
But it's a good experience watching a movie with almost all of the people wearing lolita.

After that, we took some photos and on the way met some new friends and went to PS to eat mac.
Everyone was staring at as (as expected) and some took our photo without permission (which i hate).

We went to Kino at Bugis to buy 鬼怒穿.
I'm glad that I don't need to run all over Singapore to buy that compare to his previous 搞什么鬼?! book.
And I'm super happy that inside there's his 'single' CD，鬼混. (as I thought only pre-order then have it)
The song is very catching and I've memorise the tune once I heard it.
The song suits him very much, quite nice and cute.
We went to take neoprints after that, though you can't see the dress we're wearing as there's too many people squeezing in one neoprint station.

That's all for today.

Random post.

2008-06-18T15:03:00.011+08:00

This was what I've done during the A maths test today in school.
You'll know the results by that.

Random pic.

I love this photo took by dawgbyte during the lolita photoshoot. (:
Just feel that it's very artistic.

Love this group photo also. ((:

More photos took on 14.06.2008. ^^
I've edited some as they're too dark.

OMG. HG! =p

Next big thing to buy and watch.

Xiao Gui look very cool and cute in this.

But he is better. :D
籃球火~~~!
Saw a lot of slam dunk moves. XD

Lolita photoshoot.

2008-06-15T12:45:00.005+08:00

Went for lolita photoshoot at chinese garden with neko, zhuo heng, carol and other fellow forum members.
I did enjoyed it since it's my first time taking this kind of photoshoot.

Woke up at 6plusAM and went to meet my friends at 9AM at chinese garden.
The scenery is superb. :D
Luckily the photographers told us how to pose or else I'll stone there.

Went to Jurong Mall to eat pizza for lunch.
We're haunting for drink on the way. (most of us did not eat or drink from morning till then)
When we're waiting to be served at the pizza hut, the waitress seems very shocked at us and turned away. In the end, we sit outside and obtained alot of stares from others.

After that, went to China town for a cosplay event but it ended in just one hour.
So, we just shop for a while and meet my sis for dinner to celebrate min's early birthday.
I went to PS and Clarke Quay with my lolita dress on the whole day.
Ehh, it feels weird.
And when we went to Waraku to eat, that waitress gave me and Ah Si freebies.
Erm. Do I look the same age as her...? =.=

Hmmm. Felt very tired afterwards.
Then I went home to search for photoshoot photos.
Here are some, but not all.
Still waiting for uploads. (:

I'll just give credits by their forum names since I don't really know their real name. Gomen.

My nails of the day. =p

A card captor sakura pose. Taken by recyclebin. (Neko loves this pose :D )

I really love this! Taken by vanq.

More? Go to this link http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v123/chaklian/Lolita%20Photoshoot%2014th%20June%202008/ . Taken by chaklian.

Happy days.

2008-06-11T18:29:00.004+08:00

I finally can sleep soundly yesterday, though I still woke up a few times in the middle of the night.
Singing really makes you feel tired after all.
Yesterday went to Hougang Kbox to sing with Shi ping and friends.
Had a great time. (:

I feel that eye contact with someone I'm talking to is very hard.
Don't ask me why. I, myself, also don't know.
I'll just try to avoid.
So... I apologise to who ever that thinks I'm rude when you're talking to me.
And please don't talk to me when I'm day dreaming as I'll not reply.
My mind will shut off.

I'd just went to read some of my friend's blogs.
You know, I seldom get into other people's life though I linked them.

Saw that Indrani had her documents corrupted in her thumb drive.
After reading that, I ran to take my thumb drive and back up all the files inside. *grin*
I can't afford to lose them. They're precious?
And I can hear Mr Ng's saying "Practice makes permanent..." in my mind.
Eh... Creepy.

And of course there's some boring posts.
I... don't want to mention about it cause I didn't even read it?

Also, found out that my friends like Jeant and Donovan made their post quite funny or humorous, although sometimes their posts are like writing a composition.
I don't know why. It just makes me laugh?

Talking about this, I found out that actually Donovan isn't really my 'friend'.
Just someone who teaches me how to complete those stupid levels in o2JAM.
I know it's a 'once-upon-a-time' thing already.
About months ago he's still asking me "Who are you?" in MSN.
Yup, but I guess I seen him in MRT before. LOL.

*changed new MV on front page. :D *
Find the lyrics very meaningful.
_______________________________________________________________
蕭敬騰-原諒我

請不要分了以後　還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久　已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂　或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受　他比我適合
愛放了手　我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我　原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口　好讓妳離開我
請原諒我　好想自私將妳佔有
一個寂寞就給我承受　換妳過更好的生活

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久　已不屬於我
默默低頭那时我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂　或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受　他比我適合
愛放了手　我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

愛過恨過哭過也笑過　親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱

原諒我　必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間逗留　我怕說不出口
原諒我　沒有解釋太多心痛
別無所求徹底忘了我愛原來有舍得
我難過　我才懂

*我每一天、每一次经历过的事情

heartpainagain..

曹格, in my dreams (:

HOLIDAYS~

Tired of everything

Assignments go and die!!!!!!!!!

I'm engaged?

Worries...

DIY Pinball Machine Presentation

DIY Pinball Machine

FRIDAY!

My poly CCA choice~

So many stuffs, no time

Poly, New Life

Happy 1yr 10mths

?????

Money fly away~

My dreams

Artwork #002

Artwork #001

New way of Blogging

Deviant Art Contest : Good VS Evil (:

Elmo Marathon

...............

Last day of Orientation '09

Sigh ):

I hate orientation >:(

Shaman King

Magical Girl

My drawing tablet :DD

drawing tablet (:

Insomnia Report #002

KBOX!

happy birthday polar...

Insomnia Report #001

It's coming back

Sick again

Worn out ):

What happen?

Digimon Adventure~

Deviant Art

Carl's Jr Breakfast

My Valentine's Day celebration ♥

♥ happy valentine's

羅志祥, a guy who i loved

Sentosa Trip (:

Insomnia ):

Dear family...

2009. the new beginning

Primary Schoolmates Gathering!

New Year Wishes

Reasons why I hate arcade

In love with him again. (:

Happy Christmas Eve!

【心理測驗】 Personality Disorder

Office Christmas Party~

Is this a dream?

Heart Pain.

Boring Weekend

Sigh ):

Greedy Panda

sleepy panda

Life at work...

I love-d you...

I NEED SLEEPING PILLS!!!!!

Aww, man... i'm bored

2008 NV graduation high tea - photos (part 2)

Personality Test

Ah Bao's Wedding ((:

2008 NV graduation high tea - photos (part 1)

2008 NV graduation high tea - post

Os finally OVER!

Yo!

【星座】十二星座不能說的愛...

【心理測驗】 你和什麼人最配~

【心理測驗】 你是怎樣的人？

I'm FREEEEE~~~~

Food Gourmet - 1

'O' levels are coming~

Let's get wacky~! ^^

【心理測驗】你和什麼人最配~

【心理測驗】你是怎樣的人？